Everyone says a toxic person whatever they project onto other people they are that person and they are having those wounds but why do I have to analyse or interrupt those things why can't I just live my life I didn't ask for other people's emotions and stuff then why should I be differentiating what my emotions are what other people's emotions are and why do I have protect my energy constantly why am I getting attacked I don't wanna listen that hight destiny and meant to be this n that can't I just have a normal fucking life like literally can't I have something easy why does everything have to be so painfull and struggle and just not nice if people don't want to like me it's okay you don't have to darling but why am I supposed to overcome their bullying me that wasn't even caused by me in the first place and then expect me to be all love and light or not resentfull then resentment is bad for you I mean of ourselves I'll be fucking resentfull man like how can I not after all that means shit yeah ik all that shadow stuff I didn't ask for your f opinion let me be where does people find that much audacity to give advice when I didn't even asked them why bro what do you want find someone else bro leave me alone I'm already finding difficulty dealing with my own emotions and here you are with you lil asss ego and lava like insecurity why do I have to deal with your fucking insecurity I just to live a cute lil life I have why do you have to make it so complicated for me (well all that doesn't apply to strangers I don't give a f about strangers it's all family and close ones )

If it’s meant to be it will be … is this an excuse for detachment… a Santa clause saying to keep us finding hope in the unknown … or … do you believe that your higher power has a plan for you , truly . I haven’t felt that friendly… people are actually horrible. I have to walk into a situation that was very clearly the start of an altercation It’s a time of year that is not my favorite … And I feel like life is feeling more like the Truman show of scripted bs and nothing organically real… Not sure what I believe anymore . I quit all my things and modified my life to fit real job and real money that I don’t have to compromise for . Tomorrow I have a meeting with someone about being a human trafficking advocate , and I haven’t wanted to be involved in something so much in a long time . I was thinking about going to Sedona , and to solidify my feeling “good to go” outside of all the adversity I’ve had going to the things already , it’s easy to travel , and some are less helpful in arrangements … So I applied for another opportunity there . To see if it would solidify the pull for me to to go , since it’s a lot of resources and energy . I have things coming up that i feel like give me a break from all the trying to be my own boss . What’s meant to be … Fingers crossed it starts happening in undeniable ease

If you're an ocean, be an ocean. Don't be a pond because people can't swim

If any opportunity is coming to me then I must be capable 🪄 Preperation and doing is another thing tho 🌝 If ykyk P.s - This is for people who have experienced imposter syndrome , doubts , fears

Healing? More like ego in disguise Trauma is real. Period. Healing is real too. I'm not denying any of that. But here's the part people don't like to admit: after a while, trauma work can quietly turn into self-absorption... and it's now socially rewarded. I didn't see it while I was in it. I see it clearly now. Here's how it showed up for me: 1. I expected special handling because of my trauma. I thought people should communicate differently with me, move slower, be more careful. When they didn't, I internalized it as harm instead of reality. 1. I expected special handling because of my trauma. I thought people should communicate differently with me, move slower, be more careful. When they didn't, I internalized it as harm instead of reality. That wasn't healing, that was entitlement dressed up as sensitivity. 2. I centered my pain in every interaction. Conversations became about how things affected *ME*, how *I* felt, how it connected to *MY* past. Healing turned into constant self-referencing instead of actual growth. 3. I confused awareness with transformation. I could explain every pattern, name every wound, trace everything back to childhood. But insight without behavioral change is just intellectualized self-absorption. 3. I confused awareness with transformation. I could explain every pattern, name every wound, trace everything back to childhood. But insight without behavioral change is just intellectualized self-absorption. 4. I tried to control people instead of regulating myself. I expected others to anticipate my triggers, adjust their tone, and manage my reactions for me. That's not healing, that's outsourcing self-regulation. 5. I made my reactions understandable instead of changing them. Explaining why I snapped, shut down, or withdrew felt like growth. It wasn't. Responsibility starts where justification ends This is why so many people feel "healed" but still can't handle life. They have language. They have insight. They have stories.