recently, I was in the Hospital... the Neurologic ICU to be exact. I experienced a 'tiny' brain hemorrhage and ot felt like I was done. it was excruciating, my vision was discombobulated, and my heart rate was through the roof. The Drs were hypothesizing on cause and cure. Turns out, no one knew why, there is no evidence of a cause... and there are no restrictions, meaning they don't know what I should do to prevent another episode. We are tracking Blood Sugar/Glucose and Blood Pressure, but nothing definitive. I walked away from the Hospital with one suggestion: take several breaks throughout my days and do 1-3 5-10 minute walks. As I face my own fragility, I am encouraged to BE in the moment. BE me, BE who God has created me to BE. Bring God given identity to every meeting and connection. The tension is, I want people to like me, so I strive to do what I think they want. I am a task-driven personality, I like to have things to do, I get nervous when I don't have something to do. I push away the feelings, I am intent on getting details correct, and I miss the indicators for my own needs. <pause> I am learning to BE with God, family, and friends; without having to prove myself, do something for another, or having to accomplish a task or project. <pause> The Bench group invited me to make a journal entry and list what I am feeling?, where am I feeling it?, What is going on right now? They said it is NOT going to be done in a minute or two.... take some time. and repeat it a couple of times. One of our Bench friends is from India, and he shared he is in a Chai Group. A group of friends who can call anytime to meet over Chai, and ask, What do you see in me? What is good? What is off? And, yes, I made the connection right away between a Chai Group and Looks Like Coffee... I am on the road this week. I need a virtual Chai Group call.