@Isaac Kang listen, i agree with the first part that you wrote and that is where i am coming from. I too have been through alot ups and downs and traumatic experiences in my walk with God that has brought me closer to him through it and it is how i have learned from him and been shaped by his voice. My point of view is that the true worshippers worship in Spirit and truth. I am all about being lead by the Spirit of God, hearing his voice and being confirmed in scripture. All of that is to say that i see the problems with Christianity as a whole with so many people calling themselves Christians and defiling the name of God for the way want God to be. Its all the warnings that the Apostles wrote about are running rampant now. I want people to truly know God by His Spirit and to truly love one another which is his royal command. Sometimes love isnt going to be pleasant as iron sharpening iron, meaning people speaking the truth that others may not like but its intended to help. You feel like a Jeremiah, so do I many times. What I wrote was to help clarify myself and speak my differences from where ive learned from the Lord. Its not to hurt you and i apologize if i did hurt you. The point though is the Kingdom of God is not operating as it is supposed to be. Christianity as a whole is far from God and unless we all are willing to examine ourselves in the Lord and ask him to make us like him it wont ever get to the way it was in Acts and we will continue to have factions. People hurting outside cant be helped by people claiming to be of the Kingdom but live their version of God. We need the power of the Holy Spirit working in us through the transformation power of His Spirit. The Kingdom is not supposed to be about fear of doing something wrong and I by no means am saying that. It is about a relationship with God receiving his love and his teaching from him as we die to our flesh. It also is keeping a careful check on ourselves that we dont get deceived and that comes through constantly being open to God to check us that we think we know is true. If that wasnt an issue we wouldnt have these factions. I agree with what i see in your video about all the fake deliverance garbage going around, thats a part of the problem that im talking about. I see the grief that you felt from the abuse done by carnal Christians claiming to be in God. Ive searched out in God these issues and more with God and thats where he taught me about the cross to kill our flesh and transform us into his image. If we all truly apply ourselves to this, not out of fear but a love for the truth then we can overcome the fakers with the real thing like they had in the beginning of Acts. Hope this is helpful to you, God Bless