Eleven years later. Same heart, different hands.
Hi Everyone 👋 Please take a few minutes to relax and read through this post, as it means so much to me, and I hope it will for you too ❤️ I wrote the first version of this post in 2015. I was younger then. Not in years, maybe...but in how I thought change worked. I believed if I just loved hard enough, wrote clear enough, stood firm enough, the world would tilt toward peace. It hasn’t..... Not yet. Some days it feels like we’ve gone backwards. But here’s what eleven more years of Buddhism and Daoism have taught me….The goal was never to fix the world. The goal is to keep showing up inside it without closing my heart. I still run a blog in the format of Skool. I still try to live compassionately, in how I speak, how I spend my money, how I fail and try again. But I no longer pretend it’s easy. The negative comments still come. Sometimes crueller than before. The world is louder now. Meaner in some corners. And I have days where I want to shut it all down and walk into the woods and never read another argument about things that should be simple, like feeding the hungry, or not bombing children. But I don’t shut down. Not because I’m strong. Because I’ve learned something from sitting still. Anger is not my enemy. Burnout is. So I practice wu wei, not laziness, but knowing when to push and when to let the river carry what it will. I practice metta, starting with myself, because you can’t pour from a cracked bowl. The wars haven’t stopped. Poverty hasn’t ended. The environment is bleeding faster. And yet. And yet, I see more people waking up than I did in 2015. Young people who refuse to accept this as normal.Communities sharing food, not just recipes. Strangers on the internet choosing kindness in the middle of a flame war.... That’s not nothing. That’s the dharma moving through sneakers and hashtags and tired parents posting at 2am. So here’s what I actually believe now, not what sounds hopeful, but what keeps me getting up... We may not see peace in our lifetime.