Nothing profound today just sense of relaxation and spaciousness.

Today's practice continued on the relationship reflection which made me think I may need to seek out a trained facilitator as I thinkcouod use an individual session for deeper release work.

Today as I was practing an unusual visual came to mind of me on one side of a glass wall and my family the other side. It hit deep in my gut as that is a good representation of how I'm feeling right now like I'm on the outside looking in. I decided to clear that out and another visual of me taking a hammer to that glass and smashing it then stepping through to my family cropped up. As I stepped through a feeling of relief welled up. Wow this reminded me of when my Mom died when I was a teen and how I felt back then. In my experience my whole family was hurting and I felt like I no longer fit with them as their grief made it so I had to stuff my own so I did not hurt them more. I thought I had worked through this in therapy but the body has held on to those emotions. Today was very powerful as I really do feel a huge release.

I've missed posting for several days due to some personal issues although I have done breathing exercises which I have to say have kept me grounded and able to engage in some in depth self reflection which is prompting me to make a few changes. I hope all of you in the community are doing well.

Today's my focus was on life purpose as in retirement having a "job" is no longer part of my purpose. There is grappling with where to go now and what to do with myself. Thoughts drifted to "what lights me up?," "what brings me meaning?," and "where do I want to take this new chapter?" This will obviously take multiple reflection sessions but it is fun seeing how the process is evolving and topics that flow in my mind as I breathe become deeperso that I know myself in this chapter on a deeper level.