Good morning beautiful ones. I am reaching out for support. Some days living with cptsd kicks my a**. I find myself in a self-saboatge shame cycle again and this one has been a doozy. Full of overwhelm, avoidance, self-deprecating self talk, binge eating and spending money recklessly. Laying on the couch doom scrolling. Ugh. I feel shame around not leading a single journey thus far. I did some Journaling this morning and my shame is wrapped around success, that's all that mattered to my ex. If I didn't succeed at something, and I never did in his eyes, I wasnt good enough, smart enough, worthy enough, deserving of anything. I wasn't wife enough or mother enough. I'd never get it right and I'd just mess things up for him to have to fix. Better of just staying in the background as a pretty little thing. Just a trophy wife. More that 20 years of manipulation, control, gaslighting, abuse. That's the garbage that still runs through my head nearly 10 years later. I'm free now but I'm not. I am so afraid of not succeeding. That fear becomes paralyzing. I numb out, that became my befault survival mechanism. Even though I'm in a safe, loving and supportive marriage now my brain doesn't always believe it. Ive been working on healing my mind, making better connections and associations for my mind. I know what I need to do but I can't get my mind, body and emotions together to do it. To that end I am asking for recommendations on journeys to help get me up and over this bump in the road. I haven't done a journey in a couple weeks and I definitely feel the difference. Maybe I need to revisit a journey I've already done? I overthink everything so help me keep it simple! I know I can't effectively use the medicine of breathwork to help others if I don't use it first to help myself. Thank you all for being the amazing human beings you are. ❤️

Hi, I was wondering if there was anyone else who has managed to download some of the playlists from Journeys they have done, then listen to them throughout the day, in the background of their day, in the car etc. My question is, has anyone noticed a shift in their awareness, energy, the way they breathe when listening to the playlists? Firstly I love the music so I have tried to download the music purely for the enjoyment, however, I have realised that whilst I listen to the music I am subtely aware of a shift within my being. I am still putting a definite finger to it, though there is a greater calm within. It is as if the breathwork journey of that playlist, whatever was released and healed, now comforts, heals & there is this peace, calm, healing energy. Its amazing! I would love to know if anyone else has experienced something similiar.

https://youtu.be/O_vn-wPp-jo

By Stanislav Grof and Christine Grof The title of this post says "Recommended Reading", but this should be "Required Reading" EDIT: this should be the working link.... https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/8v236q7pxibx6kr5vi87u/Holotropic-Breathwork-Stanislov-Grof-ChristinaGrof.pdf?rlkey=o5mgo2huqjc8xcncr38pjfmxh&dl=0

This is your entry point into a hyper-learning environment primed for maximum growth and transformation. You’ll find the tools, the techniques, and more than enough motivation to use breathwork to heal every part of your body and your life. The only thing I can’t do for you is breathe. What I can do is tell you to do this: - Do the 5 Day Breathwork Challenge - Sign up for a minimum of 1 deep dive Transformational Breathwork Journey/month - Do the Morning Breath Activation practice EVERY DAY - Hold each other accountable to show up as your best selves  - Support, motivate and inspire each other If we do the practices, if we commit to the shifts, if we build a strong community then we cannot fail to create a better world for ourselves and each other. Let’s get it! Brian