Morning everyone. 🙏 Yesterday we spoke about the story you keep telling yourself.Today I want to take it a step further. You don’t just tell the story… you live it. You make decisions from it.You avoid things because of it.You stay small because of it.You push people away because of it. So here’s your challenge today: Catch yourself in the moment when that old version of you shows up.The one who wants to play safe. The one who expects things to go wrong. And instead of reacting automatically, pause and ask:“What would the healed version of me do right now?” Then do that. Even if it feels uncomfortable. Drop below one small action you’re going to take today from your future self, not your past. This is how we start becoming the person we know we’re meant to be.

What am I most afraid people will see about me?

I keep getting that feeling, as if I’m about to explode!! I know things are building but I’m determined not to allow them to explode , I’ve come too far along this journey to allow that! Last October mum dropped the bombshell that I had an older brother, yesterday she casually drops into conversation he’s planning coming up for her birthday this weekend..wtf ? Staying at hers , I’m ok with them talking, meeting etc it’s between them but don’t force him on me , don’t just assume I’m ok with it, don’t expect me to entertain some stranger or even make small talk 🗣️ I always dreamt of having a big brother, cause he could have saved me all those years ago but I don’t need him or want to know him just now! Is that being selfish, probably I don’t care but since the end of year this guy has been put on a bloody pedestal, my siblings and myself have been playing second fiddle to him….well not me, birthday or not , the boundaries are raised even higher for this weekend, and as for the birthday celebration plans…not interested, they can get on with them with my blessing! And breathe Karen !🧘 School night road trip pending….. 😂🚘

On Valentine’s Day of last year I gifted myself a Discovery call with Paul. A couple of weeks later I began a 4 week 1to1 course. It is true to say I have come a very long way in less than a year. Happy Valentine’s Day to me & my girls! Hope you’re all showing yourselves plenty of love 💗😊💗

What happened to me was not my choice. The abuse, the neglect, the abandonment, the lies, the loss, even the betrayal, none of these things were my fault! I didn’t ask for the scars I carry now or even the nightmares that visit me as a reminder. I also don’t need to apologise for how I survived or for the coping mechanisms I developed or used to get through some real impossible situations. I know now that I’m gaining the strength, knowledge and power to travel along this healing journey. No one else can do this work for me, No one else can untangle or unbox the pain of my trauma which is in my nervous system. No one else can rewrite the stories trauma left in my mind and body. No one else can protect and love my inner child and teen! That maybe isn’t fair and it’s certainly not just but to be honest it’s reality!!! Waiting for an abuser to heal you or for the world to repair what it broke or for someone else to fix what I didn’t break…that’s giving my power away. Not any more, that patterns are changing, that power is all mine! Healing is how I take my life back and that’s not being selfish as some people think, it’s my right and my responsibility x 🙏 @Paul Cameron