Looking forward to your answers ~~~

Paul didn’t deny his past. He just refused to let it drive. “Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal…”— Philippians 3:13–14 Notice this: Paul doesn’t say the past doesn’t matter. He says it doesn’t get to steer. Regret will keep you looking backward. Nostalgia will keep you standing still. Both feel spiritual. Neither is obedience. Faith presses forward—even when clarity isn’t complete, even when the road still hurts, even when you’re tired of starting again. You don’t move on by feeling ready. You move on by deciding the past no longer gets a vote. 👉 What are you still holding onto that God already told you to release so you could move forward?

I was terminated from a job today over an I-9 documentation issue. There were things I should have handled sooner. There were steps I didn’t follow through on correctly. That part is on me. What’s sitting with me is how familiar this pattern is. Not because I don’t care. I care deeply. But because attention and executive functioning challenges keep showing up in structured work environments in ways that cost me, even when I’m trying and even when the work matters to me. I’m not sharing this to excuse it. I’m sharing it because pretending it’s just a one-off mistake hasn’t helped me learn from it. Fast-paced systems, admin-heavy tasks, tight compliance rules, and little margin for error are hard for me to sustain long term, especially when I’m managing medication changes and mood instability. That’s uncomfortable to say out loud. There’s a lot of shame in realizing that wanting to work full time, or wanting to “be more together,” doesn’t automatically make it accessible. There’s grief in accepting that capacity has limits that motivation alone can’t fix. Today feels like a forced pause. Not a clean one. A clarifying one. I’m trying to hold responsibility without turning it into self-punishment. I can see where I dropped the ball, and I can also see that continuing to ignore how my brain actually works has not served me. Right now I’m focused on next steps. Exploring part-time options. Looking into disability. Rebuilding income in ways that are more sustainable. I’m sharing this here because a lot of us run communities, build systems, and support others while quietly struggling behind the scenes. We talk about alignment, sustainability, and values, but it’s harder to admit when our own structures are breaking us. This is me learning in real time. If you’re a community builder or operator who’s been forced to rethink how you work because of burnout, disability, or capacity limits, you’re not alone. If it feels okay to share, what’s something your work has recently asked you to look at more honestly?

Who else is coming on here to keep their streaks up??? 😂

I hope everyone had a great day yesterday! I made this red Lentil Pasta dish, with help!, for Christmas Dinner Goodness. There's Radishes, garlic, lemon juice and other fixins too 😋 What was on your 🍽 yesterday?