I totally relate Chani! Same things you mentioned are holding me back. I don’t have an answer. Some I discuss with my husband and he’ll say to go for it, but I worry that we can’t really handle it financially and he feels pressure to make me happy. And for sure the parenting responsibilities, scheduling… Recently it felt clear- I never would have imagined, but a close friend of my husband reached out to me saying that he would like to gift us tickets to EY, and they have an apartment for us to stay in :) so we went for a week! Was not simple to figure out my kids, but we made it happen:) It was my 40th birthday on the trip and it had been our 18th anniversary, but we hadn’t planned anything- things have been so bad intense and hectic lately . We did bring our baby bc that’s just what stage we’re in.