And now I’m distorting my stuff around me… I’m very awake and aware of the fact that I’m ahead of the game, but I really need support now. I’m getting hit with something negative and I’m strong, but also going through menopause…lol. I just need someone to talk to that actually understands what I’m dealing with. Everyone here seems like my kinda people… I’m ready to just up and move across country…. I’m tired of this way of living. I’ve had several NDEs and I know it does something (changes) you, but I’m borderline checking out because I yearn to be at the next phase…but I have a daughter (22) and I know she’s a big part of this spiritual stuff because she has ELEVENELEVEN tattooed and she claims to not know why. She refuses to talk spirit stuff with me, my guess is it scares her. I just need a little guidance right now, as I’m a former alcoholic and addict and the devil has been trying really hard on me. I love being sober now, and authentic, honest, and personally I think I’m funny a f… But I feel so stuck… any suggestions? And I’m all set with therapy… I tried and she had no clue about anything spiritual. And has anyone else tried to get on meds they were on previously and been told by new doctor? Our healthcare system sucks ass. I’m sorry for the length of this, but I have so much to say…lol. Been isolated for 3 years since my car accident. Time to activate a med bed!?? Hope everyone is living their best lives today and forever