5 Struggles 1. I struggle with body dysmorphia and still tie my worth to validation, praise, and being chosen even though I’m in the best shape of my life. 2. I overinvest in people I love and abandon myself in the process. I poured my time, money, energy, and mental health into helping my ex build his bodybuilding gym because I thought sacrifice would make me worthy of love. 3. I struggle with inconsistency because I operate in extremes. I obsess over the end result so much that I emotionally burn myself out trying to rush the process. 4. For years I tied attention, sexuality, and validation to my self worth when what I was really craving was emotional connection and to feel fully chosen. 5. I feared instability and wasting my potential because my life constantly felt unpredictable. Homelessness, toxic environments, financial stress, and always rebuilding myself made me scared I would never truly find my place in life. 5 Contrasting Wins Self Respect:Bodybuilding is teaching me that confidence is not validation or perfection, it’s self respect. Every workout, meal prep, and disciplined choice is proof that I’m capable of rebuilding myself from the inside out. Leadership:Helping build my ex boyfriend’s bodybuilding gym taught me leadership, resilience, sacrifice, and business. I handled paperwork, invested my own money, sold memberships in the Florida heat, and survived emotionally abusive environments. That experience prepared me for who I am today at Title Boxing Club. Purpose Driven:I realized I’m not lazy at all. Lazy people don’t survive homelessness, housing court, unstable environments, and constantly rebuilding their life from scratch. My problem was never work ethic. It was purpose. Self Connection:Bikini bodybuilding helped me stop pouring all my energy into other people and finally redirect it back into myself. My routine, discipline, growth, and goals fulfill me more than temporary validation ever could. Connection & Leadership:Working at Title Boxing Club gave me more than a job. It gave me purpose, confidence, community, and proof that my presence impacts people’s lives. I became one of the top sales people at my club not because I pressure people, but because I genuinely care about them and know how hard it is to choose yourself physically and mentally.