Good morning beautiful ones. I am reaching out for support. Some days living with cptsd kicks my a**. I find myself in a self-saboatge shame cycle again and this one has been a doozy. Full of overwhelm, avoidance, self-deprecating self talk, binge eating and spending money recklessly. Laying on the couch doom scrolling. Ugh. I feel shame around not leading a single journey thus far. I did some Journaling this morning and my shame is wrapped around success, that's all that mattered to my ex. If I didn't succeed at something, and I never did in his eyes, I wasnt good enough, smart enough, worthy enough, deserving of anything. I wasn't wife enough or mother enough. I'd never get it right and I'd just mess things up for him to have to fix. Better of just staying in the background as a pretty little thing. Just a trophy wife. More that 20 years of manipulation, control, gaslighting, abuse. That's the garbage that still runs through my head nearly 10 years later. I'm free now but I'm not. I am so afraid of not succeeding. That fear becomes paralyzing. I numb out, that became my befault survival mechanism. Even though I'm in a safe, loving and supportive marriage now my brain doesn't always believe it. Ive been working on healing my mind, making better connections and associations for my mind. I know what I need to do but I can't get my mind, body and emotions together to do it. To that end I am asking for recommendations on journeys to help get me up and over this bump in the road. I haven't done a journey in a couple weeks and I definitely feel the difference. Maybe I need to revisit a journey I've already done? I overthink everything so help me keep it simple! I know I can't effectively use the medicine of breathwork to help others if I don't use it first to help myself. Thank you all for being the amazing human beings you are. ❤️

Here's a bit of copy I wrote for my social medias ..................,.............. Don't be fooled, breathwork isn't just a passing trend—it's a game-changer for your health! Imagine having the key to the single most important function of your body. The power to drive yourself towards vibrant health or steer clear of disease. That's what breathwork offers. 🌬️ Here's why you should be excited: Autonomic Nervous System: Your body's operating system, constantly guided by your breath, decides your actions. Discover how breath can influence this system and direct your health. Physiology: Oxygen and carbon dioxide are life's building blocks. Every process in your body depends on their balance. Breathwork is your secret weapon for managing these crucial elements. Stress: Stress is inevitable, but your response isn't. Breathwork equips you with a powerful strategy to conquer stress and boost your resilience. Emotions: Your emotional state affects your entire body. Anxiety and gratitude trigger distinct biochemical reactions. Breathwork connects your breath to your emotional well-being, offering a unique tool to take charge of your life. So, what are you waiting for? Breathwork isn't just a trend—it's a fundamental pillar of health waiting to transform your life. Schedule a FREE consultation now at https://calendly.com/scholarlychangeworks/20-minute-free-consultation-euphoric-holotropic and embark on your journey to euphoric well-being! 🌟🌬️ #BreatheWellLiveWell #healthandwellbeing #physicianhealthyself

https://youtu.be/O_vn-wPp-jo

I have recently gotten a few Grounding devices from Earthing(dot)com I have a smart watch that tracks my sleep throughout the night and my sleep score has traditionally ranged from 52% - 70% After sleeping on the mat/pillow, I've started waking up 20 minutes before my morning alarm with a sleep score from 87% - 93% which I've NEVER been able to do previously. I do the 12 minute activation "Getting Great" routine immediately upon waking and whereas I usually struggle with the first breath hold, I went all the way through without feeling any air hunger, And whereas my BOLT score is usually doing good around 35 seconds, this morning my bolt score was **55 SECONDS** Earthing Elite Sleep Mat Kit https://bit.ly/3OwEwdz Earthing Elite Pillow Cover Kit https://bit.ly/3DBrqFJ I'm going to invest in several of the yoga mats to use for individual and group 9D sessions Earthing® Yoga Mat... I've been looking forward to facilitating outdoor sessions, but the 106°+ Fahrenheit summer in Texas has rather put a hitch in my giddy up https://bit.ly/47cAEpp Boy howdy, LFGOOOO!!

I'd gotten off my routine and was noticing how unsettled I was feeling. How I'd reverted back to serving from depletion instead of from overflow, which isn't sustainable. I've just finished day 3 of the 5 Day Challenge (again) and it's just what I've been needing! I'm so grateful for this space, this community, and this beautiful practice. 🙏❤️

By Stanislav Grof and Christine Grof The title of this post says "Recommended Reading", but this should be "Required Reading" EDIT: this should be the working link.... https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/8v236q7pxibx6kr5vi87u/Holotropic-Breathwork-Stanislov-Grof-ChristinaGrof.pdf?rlkey=o5mgo2huqjc8xcncr38pjfmxh&dl=0

As a lover of music, I'm always collecting songs. What are some of your favorite, gorgeous, emotional songs? Bonus points if they reference 'breath'. ❤️

Well, my online sessions have pretty much dried up/run their course so I decided to get my butt in gear and approach more in-person venues. I'm attending a complimentary Pilates session on Friday 🤞🏼🙏🏼💜 ☮️💜🫁

I'm feeling that after my first big and ancestral release I didn't get anymore releases that deep. It's been a few months and I know journeys will always move us somewhere we need most but I wonder if I'm trying to control it unconsciously. If so, has anyone felt this way? What did you do about it to get through?

A thousand thanks to @Amanda Jane for her masterful work! www.Scholarly-Changeworks.com

I joined the 9D community today 🥳💪💯🍀🙏

Just did the 12 min 9D journey after haven been away from my breatwork practice for a while. Absolutely f…ing amazing. Brian, I love your energy and power, and coming from the spiritual scene, what draws me back here again and again, is the power, and that every thing doesn’t feel so polished. Thank you!! I missed the abundance journey from Monday, and feel sooo sad for this!! I thought I still had time tonight, but missed that it was on Bali time 😂 So please throw some likes on this post and help me level up, so I can unlock another amazing journey here 🥰😍❤️ I appreciate all of you and this community! Thank you ❤️

Hey Tribe! Just a heads up! Skool will be getting a little tune-up this Thursday, Nov 9, from 6pm to 7pm (Pacific time). During this hour, you might experience a brief downtime. Big love. 🤍

I been trying to log in to the MB30 course, but I keep receiving a 403 message. Is this just me, or is it something anyone else experienced?

9D letting go and moving on...another effective journey experience. The process is easier to settle into now...allowing for more exploration of the inner terrain and the intentions of the journey. Such a similar experience to shamanic journey experience that uses drums and/or rattles to access this same terrain.