I'm doing this a little differently because my phone keeps acting up every time I try to make a video, so I'm just posting what my Daily Vibe was for the day and what is going on in my day today. It's going to be more like a journal entry today, so please bear with me as I try to build this habit. Today's situation: - I'm trying to show up for myself by doing these daily and getting back to doing videos like I was regularly doing, but my damn phone is full again and it's getting on my nerves how I'm having to double check old work so that I don't lose certain values of sorts. Nonetheless, regardless the challenges, I'm still going to show up for myself by posting at least one of these daily and then going from there as my day goes. 💪💪💪 - My vibe mentioned something about healing old patterns to open up pathways to authentic connection. It sounds pretty counterintuitive for me at the moment, considering that the only way for me to heal these old patterns that prevent me from making genuine connections is by going out and making genuine connections so that I can get past the rejection part of things. Some times I'm afraid of acting like a childish narcissist if I get rejected in some way shape or form...but I guess I have to go out and find that out... ...somehow. 😅🫣😅 - I'm not sure what made me, but SOMETHING made me sign up for a gym membership at my local Planet Fitness and considering that I already do exercises alone and away from the world, this is NEW for me. Earlier today, I went and did a calisthenics workout before I went to work at the tavern (which also luckily happen to be in the same shopping center as Planet Fitness) and while I was there, it was an experience to adjust to. I would say it was uncomfortable, but it really wasn't after 5 minutes of being there... so... that's something. 🙆🏃‍♂️🤸 As you navigate the streets of your life: - Always show up for yourself in some way regardless of your external circumstances. The work you put in will always be worth it. 💪 - Making connections will be the only way that you will ever truly know what it is that you need to work on when it comes to making connections. 💚 - Being uncomfortable is part of the growth process. Trust it and know that as the time goes, you'll find your groove and from there, you will find out what is and or isn't for you when it comes to the changes you're undergoing. 💯

So...as an attempt to truly put myself out there again, I've decided to pick up on this habit again. For a little while for the past several months, I did one of these videos daily and then when I took up some part time work at the current tavern I worked at, I stopped to get myself familiarized with my roll as a cook. Now that I have that down, I'm revisiting this again because I miss doing these and helping people out in the day in some way. Anycase, I hope you're having the best day! 💚💚💚

Well... not quite... it's more like I didn't have the words to describe something I now have a more precise sense of terminology for. I have announced myself a good bit as a transformational coach...and in some cases, I would considerably be so...but that's not so much the profession I probably tell others that I am. A more appropriate term that I would like to consider myself would be that of a "holistic internal street guide"...even though what it is I do looks a lot like possibly a coaching session. Some would dare say that I am a "directional coach"...(and even though that sounds more professionally pressured if anything) But if I am going to perfectly honest with my clientele at any point, I'm just as much a fuqed up mess as the next soul who is humanely trying to make it in this world of wonderous complexity. My streets are just as much polluted as maybe yours...but my streets are also beautiful...if not just as beautiful as yours. One recurring theme I do tend to talk about much is perfectionism.... ...and how I'm absolutely far from perfect. But I will tell you that I am a perfect mess...and I'm okay with that even though I know not everybody else will be... but...like Street Therapy...I'm not for everybody. I want to close this out by stating how transparent I'm being with my internal transitions and personal transformations. There's a great deal of many spiritual aspects about myself that I am still exploring and one of the craziest things I am currently exploring right now is how vast this world really is for a soul like myself who found the comfort in small. I still do find a comfort in small, but I also am aware of the discomfort of growth. Growing pains happen more than just in physical and physiological ways...they can also happen in various ways spiritually and, dare I say, metaphysical ways. Collectively, I think we're still exploring this as well as ways to put words to it, but various growing pains of this caliber are also happening within each of us individually as well...and I feel our truest power is being transparent about it whenever it happens, more so with ourselves than with others.

When a person finds it difficult or impossible to trust others, does it mean that on some level they don't trust themselves?

In the past, friends have invited me to attend Buddhist and Hindu services with them. In these services were included walking meditations. I found this a very interesting practice and have incorporated it into my life. I take a daily walk that is meditative or one where I am repeating affirmations. I find being outside and doing these is very powerful. The walking meditations are quite refreshing, and the affirmations quite effective. I would encourage others to give it a try. I would love to hear what other practices you might have that provide similar benefits.