@Dawn Renee Bova Hi I’m Kayla. I lost my soulmate, best friend, my other half, my world, my missng piece, my Clyde to my Bonnie; my fiancé Andre. He passed away in the ICU over by our apartment on August 11, 2025 a little over 2 months ago. I have been struggling kind of hard but then there are days I am totally fine, and I am very well aware that is super normal and part of the healing and grieving process. However, there’s been some things that came to light and surfaced after he passed away, plus most of his family including his mother have not made this grieving process easy for me whatsoever. I am trying to understand that they lost someone as well, but being conniving, vindictive, petty, and rude is just uncalled for. His mother wouldn’t even allow me a small amount of his ashes for a necklace urn that my own mother paid for herself, and my mother doesn’t have very much money so she paid for it when she got paid and his mother has not allowed me to even be given a small amount to put some in my necklace like that is beyond uncalled for. But anyways, sorry for the little side rant. Well, what I find that I am really struggling with is, 1. How to continue on my healing and grieving journey when some parts of me harness so much resentment but complete this grieving process or when move forward with my grieving process, when there are so many unanswered question? & 2. How can I forgive the stuff I found out that has come to light and has surfaced when I am so mad & hurt by what I found?