A Mother’s Day love letter to the women who lost themselves while keeping everyone else alive Sandi Rufo May 10, 2026 Today, I’m thinking about all the women in their fifties and sixties who are being celebrated on Mother’s Day, but deep down, still don’t feel worthy of the flowers, brunches, cards, mimosas, or “you’re the best mom ever” declarations. Not because they didn’t do enough. Because they did too much. They did so much that somewhere along the way, they disappeared inside the doing. We were born into a time when certain expectations were already laid out for us before we even had a chance to ask ourselves what we wanted. Our mothers and grandmothers were told that success meant finishing school, getting married, having children, putting dinner on the table, keeping the house somewhat presentable, and making sure everyone had clean socks, brushed hair, and something vaguely edible in a lunchbox. And honestly? The bar was different then. You could put some saltine-cracker-covered chicken breasts in an onion soup casserole situation, call it dinner, and everyone lived to tell the tale. You could slap together peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, toss them into paper bags, send the family off, and then sit on the couch with your coffee, watch your soaps, clean during commercials, maybe fold some laundry, maybe not, maybe eat a sleeve of Nilla Wafers and call it lunch. There might be a Tupperware party. Maybe a casserole swap. Maybe a Avon lady at the door. Work was for men. Play was for kids. Housewives were expected to hold it all together, but at least the world didn’t pretend they also had to become CEOs, nutritionists, therapists, room moms, activists, interior designers, fitness influencers, and emotionally regulated goddesses with perfect countertops. Some women loved the old arrangement. Some women were quietly suffocating inside it. Some women were fighting like hell to get out. Then something changed. The late eighties and early nineties brought a new kind of promise, but also a new kind of trap.

She is the fire that guides my spirit She is the flow helping my soul remember She is the pause for my mind's discernment She brings to form the wholeness of all that is So that I can step Into the now With her So it is

I was listening to the Week 2: Deconditioning replay and about 22 minutes in Sandi mentions a chart that she puts in the Chat. However, the Chat doesn't seem to appear in the replay, so I cannot access it. I don't see it posted anywhere else (the workbooks, The Gnostic Gospels, The Awakeinng Code). Could you message me with the link to the chart so I can follow along with it while listening to the replay? Thanks!

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