Oh honey, please don't be so hard on yourself!! I think it's truly amazing to learn another language. And from what I hear, English is difficult to learn as a second language. You are doing brilliantly. Far, far, beyond my ability! Don't worry about being error free. At all. None of us use perfect grammar in here. This is a very informal, relaxed place. I'll bet I've made a dozen errors, so far, in this reply. Do you think less of me? I doubt it. I can feel, just through this post, that you have a very big heart! That's a beautiful thing. Don't let anyone hold that against you. If someone reads your posts and is cruel or judgemental, they're not someone good enough to be your friend! Which means you don't need to care, even a tiny bit, what that person thinks. But to be perfectly honest, we have a very kind and generous moderator. @Linda Sortino has created a safe place for all beaders to meet, learn and share. If anyone gives you any trouble, you let Linda know immediately. But, to be honest, I doubt you'll have a problem. Linda has done an amazing job at gathering a kind and supportive group of beaders! So, please, join in and share away!