40 years old, never been on a date, fantasizing about suicide
I am 40 years old, and a virgin. I discovered self-improvement and pickup at the age of 17, and studied diligently, and practiced it. I put 3000 cold approaches under my belt, before I even graduated college. And I continued after that - just stopped counting. I have put in the work. SOOOOO much fucking work. And gotten NOTHING from it. Not even a DATE. Not one woman being sexually interested in me for one split SECOND. EVER. I fantasize about suicide. Every day. All day. I don't want to be here anymore. I started fixing my instagram, but I can't post any photos with girls, because I don't know any girls. I DON'T KNOW ANY GIRLS. I AM 40 FUCKING YEARS OLD, AND I'VE NEVER HAD A FEMALE FRIEND. This is wrong. It's wrong and I want out. This life is pointless. It's evil. Being born was evil and wrong. Everything is wrong.