In high school I fulfilled a lot of my academic potential through a 100% committed 'do or die' attitude. Even though I wasn't the happiest, and I'm not even sure it was worth it, I do have a begrudging respect for the fact I managed to overperform through sheer intense grit. This attitude petered out and I've never been as motivated ever since. I'm not sure if I want to return to having that attitude and am not sure I could even if I wanted to. In an ideal world I would still have the resolve and intensity needed for fulfilling all of my potential but without having to make things so hard on myself. Have struggled to find that.

@Trinley Goldenberg sick -- I'm working my way through the videos 🫡

I'm going to give you a like because this genuinely made me laugh lol

@Dillon Schiley Any recommendations for the chaos magick stuff? I've done some Existential Kink practice which was really helpful with procrastination (although have since been procrastinating doing more of it -- lol) and the author made references to it. Would be cool to learn more!

@Dillon Schiley that was exactly the kind of resource I was looking for -- appreciate it 👍