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I Must Face Myself
Hello. I don't post here often, nor do I know much about this community, to be honest. I watched the Souls Improvement videos weeks ago when I needed them most. I wish I could say the advice from those videos was something I implemented long term, but I mostly used it as motivation to do better. That was still good at the time, but now motivation isn't enough. It's a long story, so I'll keep it short. About a month ago, I was what you all call "Hollow" (I haven't played a Souls game). I didn't feel like I could keep pushing forward. But I managed, and I did well. I even replaced all my bad habits with new, productive, healthy ones. Games were replaced with the gym, overspending was replaced with financial management, overeating was replaced with proper calorie management, and procrastination was replaced with working toward my goals and passions. But slowly, I've been falling back into my old self. The thing that made me want to go Hollow in the first place was still affecting me. Each day, I slipped further back into old distractions to the point I'm at the worst place I've ever been... I can't stay this way though. Obviously. And especially not next month. This month will be extremely strenuous because of something I'm preparing for on July 1st. So, I have to face myself now. I don't have a choice. As I said earlier, I don't know much about this community, but I'll be trying to learn more. It seems like many of you do habit tracking in a gamified way. It seems fun. I'll be joining in, and I look forward to improving alongside you all. I apologize for the yapping. Thank you to whoever reads this. Any advice is welcome. Have a great day. Don't you dare go Hollow. Or, as a Code Vein player would say... don't you dare go frenzy (CV is the only Souls-like Ive played).
1 like • May 31
@Karl Friston it’s okay. I can honestly relate to you a lot. What set me on this path was a relationship I valued more than myself too. I was content with dying for them. It’s a thought I would’ve never considered especially for the sake of someone else. You could imagine how dearly I held them. Also how toxic it was.. In the end we both had to go our own paths. Aka I ruined it. But I’m at least still alive. I don’t know what path I would’ve been on if I didn’t ruin the relationship. It’s ironic. But yeah.. That led me to where I am now. Rushing to actually make something of myself. Something that could make me feel like I have some sense of value. I’ve had the wrong mindset on everything as you can see with this post. I’m working on it. Anyway.. I’ll be cheering you on. Let’s get better together. Don’t you dare go Hollow
1 like • May 31
@Carlan Ellis the thing that has kept me going has been art. I love drawing despite me not being the best at it. And the only reason I'm not the best at it is because I struggle to put action into it. I easily fall into the temptations of other easier, less productive, and less fulfilling things. I’m going to continue to improve though. That’s what this community is for after all. Thanks for the reply. Don’t you dare go Hollow. Have a great day
Did I break the curse? Or is it still there?
Just broke up with my gf of 2 years. Did so because I felt like she was putting myself before her dreams and needs and I was just the people pleaser I always used to be. We were feeding each other's anxious and avoidant patterns and she was willing to compromise on family, marriage, engagement when my head was not there yet. I broke up with her because it was a choice for me to break the curse and listen to my gut feeling. She said I gave up on her, but I told her I chose myself for once in my life. She said I would regret it, I told her I would live with it. Did my choice stem from me wanting to break free from the curse of shutting down my inner voice? Or was my anxiety and fear of the future and hollowness is what caused me to break up? Guess we will never know, but in the meantime, don't you dare go hollow.
2 likes • Apr 28
I tried breaking the curse multiple times with my gf. I finally managed to pull through with it earlier this month. Only to go crawling back to her yesterday because I couldn't handle the loneliness. It's a mess. And now that she's back it's not even the same anymore. Not that I'd want it to be since it was toxic. But now she's there but ignores me or acts dry. Intentional or not it's like she's taunting me. I'm only really there to give her attention whenever she wants it. To anyone reading this don't be weak like me. I was getting stronger but I set myself back
2 likes • May 1
@Karl Friston thanks. Sorry it took me awhile to respond. I broke free once again a day or two after. She’s still on my mind here and there. But I don’t plan on going back ever again. I still wish her the best though
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