A Changed Life For many years, I called myself a Christian and went to church, experiencing the Holy Spirit filling me up. As quickly as I had an experience with God, it was forgotten when everyday life hit me again. I was a superficial Christian with a prophetic gift, so I would occasionally hear God speak to me, but I didn't always share it. I was mostly Christian at church and not so much at home or at work; faith is a private matter, I thought. At home, my children lived with a father who lived by double standards. I had God in my life when it was helpful, but just as quickly as I sought God, I became another person, where God didn't get space to change me. Towards my children, I was a harsh father. I had a violent temper, and I wasn't the best father in the world. I demanded high standards from my children but didn't live up to them myself. I myself had an addiction to pornography. I sought to get rich quick without thinking about the consequences of what I did, so I did many things that were not legal or morally okay. But outwardly, I was a good Christian. I was good at hiding my double life; I had a beautiful facade until everything collapsed around me. I had started my own accounting firm. I borrowed a lot of money to afford the life I wanted to give my family. The company earned okay, but not quite enough, so the solution was to borrow so we could go on vacation together and have many good experiences. These vacations were good for us as a family, but it was all built on lies and loans. This made it harder to make ends meet and repay everyone I owed. But I got somewhat in control and sought God; He blessed us again, but then I forgot God a little again and fell back into my old self, and I just sank further and further into problems. Throughout all this, I had God on the sidelines, not giving Him full control, but I always leaned on God when it was difficult and maintained my facade. Then the Corona crisis hit us, and since many of my clients were small business owners, I lost a number of clients. But I thought I would get through it. I lost income of 300-400 thousand per year, so my income dropped to between 50 and 100 thousand per year.

Hello to everyone who finds this group, I have been a Christian for 40 years and I would like to share my life with you and teach you how I see us living acording to the bibel