APRIL 2nd!! I TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE!!
Day 60!! Sometimes taking responsibility for everything in my life can still be a little overwhelming!! Today would have been my 14th wedding anniversary! And instead I’m here on my own, by myself, feeling completely greatful for all the blessings I have today, now, in my present moment!! God knows that I did my best to save my marriage, I endured things that no human being should go through with someone that vowed to love, protect and serve a woman that only wanted to do the same for him!! The thing about marriage though is that it literally takes the 2 people to make it work, to be successful and when only one works in every aspect of the relationship, it will never work!! Because I can only take responsibility for my behavior, actions I had to do what was truly best for me, it took everything out of me to make the decision that I had to make, I have spent 10 years digging in deep, hitting rock bottom, rebuilding, restoring, recovering and healing my nervous system, there were times I wanted to throw in the towel, and a powerful energy, burning heart sensation never allowed me to do that!!! I now know it was my Heavenly Father, Creator God who carried me through, and allowed me to today be the G.O.A.T Iam today!! I still believe in love, marriage, relationships, humans and more importantly I believe I can be vulnerable, loving, trusting woman with the right person!! I’m genuinely thankful, happy and blessed for my life!! And I take completely responsibility for it all, and give myself grace too!!