I want to cry loud enough to split the sky,âšand scream until the fire names me whole.âšI want to curl into the shape of the little girlâš who learned too early that safety could shake. She is here again-âšsmall, watchful, trembling at the edge of tomorrow,âšfeeling the floor shift beneath her bare feet,âšfeeling anxiety creep like smoke under a locked door. She has survived worse. She knows this. And still, the body remembers in its own language:âšhospital light, medicine, the ache of being touched by fear,âšthe terrible question of whether flesh is strong enoughâšfor the next becoming. Words do not come easy.âšThey gather like rain behind the ribs.âšI do not want to burden anyoneâšwith the raw and shaking truth:âšI am scared.âšI am lonely.âšI am learning myself againâšin the ashes of what I thought had healed. Old wounds open with new names.âšOld patterns rise wearing fresh faces.âšAnd I, clear-eyed and exhausted,âšknow there is no path but through. So here stands the warrior-âšnot shining, not unbroken,âšbut dragging her limbs like sacred stone,âšdreams still flickering in her hands,âšgratitude still breathing in her chest,âševen with bricks tied to her feet. And somehow, while the body sinks,âšthe soul still lifts. Somehow I can stare into the skyâšand feel something winged inside meâšrefuse to die. There is an urge to weep fire,âšto let the heavens crack open with it,âšto rage until the stars confessâšwhat all this pain is trying to make of me. But tonight, I do not burn the world down.âšTonight, I become the vesselâšthat can hold the flame. I let the child tremble.âšI let the woman witness.âšI let the warrior rest her heavy swordâšand call survival holy. If I must begin again,âšthen let it be not as ruin-âšbut as ritual.âšNot as ending-âšbut as omen. The sky does not split.âšThe fire does not consume me. It names me.âšAnd in the naming,âšI remember: Even here,âševen scared,âševen shaking,âšI am still becoming. #poetry #shadowwork #selfcaresunday