It’s taken me a few days to sit down and write this. I didn’t really know what to say… or where to even start. Losing my mum has been the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. She wasn’t just my mum… She was my purpose, my everything, and the reason this community exists. Some of you have been here from the beginning… and you know how much she meant to all of this. Cancer Warriors was never just a group. It became something we were all going through together. Every protocol we explored… All the late nights researching… Everything I shared here… It started with her. Everything I was doing… everything I was learning — it was for her. And somewhere along the way, it became bigger than just us. It became about all of you — the messages, the shared experiences, the people fighting, the families searching for answers. It stopped being just our journey… and became something we were all a part of. I’m still processing everything… Some moments hit harder than others. There’s a lot of sadness… but also moments where things feel strangely clear. I’ll be honest — this hasn’t been easy. I’m still figuring out how to process everything, and some days I probably push myself more than I should. But having this mission gives me something to hold onto. I’ve been doing what I can to get through the days — some of it healthy, some of it just coping — and I’m still trying to find my balance. I don’t think there’s a “right way” to deal with something like this. But I do know this… Even though she’s gone… What we built together is still here. And the mission is still here. This isn’t the end. If anything, this has made things clearer for me. There are too many people going through this. Too many families looking for answers. Too many people being told there’s nothing more that can be done. I’ve seen things that made a difference. I’ve seen what can help. And I’ve seen how powerful it is when people come together and share what they know. So, moving forward… I’m not stopping.

To every one of you walking this path — whether you’re fighting, supporting someone you love, researching late at night, or simply trying to hold things together — I want you to know how deeply respected you are. This journey is not easy. It takes courage, resilience, curiosity, and heart. And yet, despite everything, this community continues to show up with generosity, wisdom, and care for one another. That matters more than words can express. Christmas can bring joy, but it can also bring reflection, uncertainty, and mixed emotions — and all of that is okay. Wherever you find yourself today, please know you’re not alone. Wishing you peace, moments of warmth, and renewed hope as we move toward a new year together 💚

A fancy German word for "on call". I had the same Bezirk, Three days in a row. Thu, I delivered letters + packages. I had to bring back half of what I took. I had to pick up 1 package from 1 person. Fri, I delivered only packages. I delivered 73% successfully. I had to pick-up 7 packages from 4 people. Sat, I delivered only packages. I delivered 100%. I had no pick-ups. was the Bezirk fully delivered? no I wonder if my colleague manages on Mon. to deliver the overflowing letters + packages. there are still more remaining: 150+ packages and 200+ letters, magazines. My goal is based on what I take with me. The goal of DHL is to deliver everything. Achieving our goal, feels amazing! Setting up goals higher than what we want to achieve, creates Stress. our Nervous System, goes offline and if it continuous, it becomes Chronic. - thrive forward PS. it was a super hot day in Berlin. An absolute must day hat! PSS. when the weather is super hot, do you prefer to spend outdoors or stay indoors?

..my beloved fellow travelers, I am a carb-addict (BIG TIME) ha-ha! => So I found Dr. Robert Cywes, MD, PhD, YT channel => he's a #CarbAddictionDoc. I've kept in my helpful quote piggy bank: "𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮 𝙨𝙣𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝙞𝙨 𝙖𝙣 𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙩," and this is so true for me => it has been handy. He gives many tips, and I thought, maybe there is someone in the same boat as me? He's all in for keto! Bonus: he is one of the participants in the animal documentary that @Lemon P graciously shared with us.. P.S. Here comes another quote: "𝙈𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙘𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬𝙡𝙚𝙙𝙜𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙗𝙡𝙚𝙢 𝙝𝙚𝙡𝙥𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙤𝙡𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙩.". ~ Martyn Lloyd-Jones

Just wanted to share where things are at with my mum’s treatment. Her latest PET scan showed a new, brighter lesion near the stomach. The team is now waiting for her tumour markers to come back from the labs, and they’ve booked more scans to get a clearer picture. They will have an MDT (Multi-Disciplinary Team) meeting this Thursday to review her case and discuss whether she should continue with Immunotherapy (Keytruda) or if changes need to be made to the treatment plan. She’s also developed belly and leg edema over the past few weeks, which could suggest lymphatic obstruction from cancer progression — a pattern we’ve seen happen in other cases. For now, we’re holding steady and hoping for more information from this week’s tests and meetings. I’ll update again when we know more. If anyone has experience with this kind of progression after about a year of Keytruda — or has used any supportive strategies at this stage — I’d love to hear. Not quite the news we were hoping for — but the oncologist said that if this is progression, it’s very slow, which given my mum’s aggressive cancer type shows that the protocol has at least helped to slow things down so far. For now, I’m hoping she will continue with her current protocol (because she “doesn’t want to slow it down if remission isn’t possible”) and that she will be willing to add Turkey Tail mushrooms, as they’ve been shown to help improve the immune response and support PD-1/PD-L1 therapies like Keytruda. We also haven’t done enough Methylene Blue or light yet — something I’d like to optimise — and I’m now considering adding CDS (chlorine dioxide solution) to the protocol at this point too. Also, we might switch the pulse to mon-tue-wed and stopping the Curcumin, Quercetin and Resveratrol on press days to allow the pro-oxidant therapies to work with full effect.