Next weekend, my hubby and I are going on vacation for our 20th wedding anniversary. I have an important game plan when I get back and I took some real steps to bringing that game plan to life. In 2020, I started an apothecary business. The pandemic showed me I needed to become self sufficient. That I couldn’t rely on anyone for an income because the world has a way of controlling the way you earn. Where I work my day job, the pay is rough and the environment is very toxic. When I first started my apothecary, I worked 8 hours away from home and then worked the apothecary until just before I’d go to bed. I burned out in about 6 weeks. So what happened? I turned my focus away from my dreams in favor of the almighty dollar because I was terrified I’d fail if I left my day job. For a time, the apothecary resonated, slow as it was. But as I continued to grow, my dreams shifted. It started to become trendy to label toxic product as apothecary quality. I felt like it minimized my business that was truly natural and I started to disconnect from it. About a year ago, I had the distinct message I should rebrand. It took me months to decide exactly what I wanted my new business to look like. Eventually, many, many logos later, Stag & Stone of Idaho materialized. I had an immediate sense of excitement. I looked for the kinds of materials I wanted for packaging. I looked for how I wanted to present my product to the customer. I researched what people are looking for in body care right now and all the other departments I wanted to have, like candles, melts, jewelry, ritual tools, my books, etc. I emerged with a beautiful logo, otherworldly packaging, and a 5 product launch line-up to get started. I dragged my feet waiting for it to feel like the right timing. And it’s time. My daily grind is showing me how I’m not aligned with my job anymore and I’m simultaneously elated and terrified to do what it’s going to take. This morning, I got my website started, taking care of the little things so I can come back from my vacation and start building my shop for a launch on June 1st. Eek!! 😬

This video very much describes my journey. In 2019, my life came to a screeching halt. My dreams imploded and I was left “stumbling around in the rubble”, as Winsome Clark puts it in Katherine Genet’s books. I can fully see that was where my greatest transformation began. I have dipped my toes into the ancient way my entire life not knowing it. But it was while working in a clinical environment that I started to see the corruption and manipulation of the healing community. Both western medicine (I was a medical assistant) and the alternative healing world (I was a wellness coach) both exhibit the same profiteering behaviors. They are businesses. Businesses that don’t welcome ethical, honest people with a heart for justice. When I left the clinic, I thought it broke me. I thought I had burned to ashes. But something rose from that. As Morghan puts it, you rebuild. And I did. Unknowingly, I began exploring myself and applying my knowledge to my life instead of just teaching someone else’s content. As a wellness coach, I didn’t feel my personal experience with my own health mattered to anyone. And maybe it doesn’t. But the wisdom I now teach, does. I vowed to be the best in my field. Not in an arrogant way, but in a safety net sort of way. A soul that desires healing would have a safe, competent place to land. Not to extort money but to exchange energy. Both sides must be in relationship with the other. I found that a soul not ready for healing does the bare minimum. They lie about doing the work, yet their symptoms and behavior give them away. They pay the fee without usurping the value. I offer wellness, peace, and stability for those ready to commit enough self-respect to their body. I started seeing the patterns and how what came out of the mouth never matched the effort put in. I saw victims crying that it was too hard. I saw women abused that refused to let go of the very thing destroying them. But everyone wants the healing. I know people personally that pout that they suffer daily and yet they never make the effort to change it for themselves. I say that I can’t do it for them. I give everything I have and it is not received. They abandon themselves because it is easier to be uncomfortable than to grow.

Over the last several weeks, I’ve experienced a couple of wounds that seem to work together nicely to keep me feeling unsure about who I am, the path I walk, and the people I allow in my life. All because of something that appears so small and so silly to my conscious mind, but is like the iceberg under the water for my ego. The ego is not bad. It is a tool like anything else and its purpose is to keep you safe. However, most of us have been taught that the ego is who we are. Our identity. How we fit into this world. So naturally, we allow it to lead everything about our lives. When we let it run free, it tends to make us forget about our Soul or Spirit. We forget we are pure love. We forget that we don’t have to create all of our problems in our reactions. So, this little thing of mine has been festering for 42 years. It’s like a little sliver that my mind has grown over, not able to come out on its own, and not able to stay in without causing more damage. But it is barely even noticeable. Until I start following threads. You see, because of my current line of deep study, I have been evaluating my emotions twice daily for the last while to get proficient at my own Somatic Healing method. I check in with my body and feel what is on the surface. Then, I find where that emotion lands on the element chart. That element corresponds to traumas, even tiny little ones that are more annoying than damaging, but halt my progress just the same. In my evaluations of late, I uncovered (with the synchronistic help of the Universe) a wound from a lot of years ago. From my father. He did not inflict this wound on me to be a bully. Yes, he was abusive at times, but I don’t feel he was doing it to traumatize me at the age of 10 or so. But the wound in me was real. I felt it there. My whole life, I know today, that I felt it there. Heard his voice in my mind countless times as I grew and matured. “You’ll never amount to anything.” And my subconscious believed him. My ego believed him. And it has kept me from creating monetary success and security. All my life. That one memory. It has gone quietly undetected all this time until I started digging to help myself so I can help others.

🌿 Conversations with the Universe — April 9, 2026 The Day of Gentle Refinement Today, I feel something subtle… but important. Not a push forward. Not a call to begin again. But a quiet invitation to adjust. There is a message moving through me today: “Refine what you’ve already built.” I notice where I’ve been trying to leap ahead… when what I actually need is to tend to what is already here. To soften the rough edges. To bring care to the details. To make small shifts that create deeper alignment. Today is not about doing more. It is about doing things better… truer… cleaner. I may feel a heightened awareness today. Of what feels slightly off. Of what no longer fits quite right. Of where my energy leaks… just a little. And instead of ignoring it… I honor it. Because this is not criticism. This is refinement. There is a sacred patience available to me today. A willingness to slow down and ask: “What would make this feel more aligned?” Not perfect. Not finished. Just… more true. Today offers me the blessing of evolution through small shifts. A reminder that I don’t need to tear everything down to grow. Sometimes… one gentle adjustment changes everything. I notice that today feels quieter. More inward. Less about action… and more about attunement. And when I allow myself to listen… I can feel exactly where to make those small, powerful changes. Today teaches me: Refinement is an act of self-respect. It is how I honor what I am building. There is a calm, precise energy guiding me today. A whisper that says: “Tend to this. Adjust here. Soften there.” And I trust it. ✨ Today’s Living Light Action: The Sacred Adjustment Today, I choose one area of my life that feels slightly out of alignment. Not overwhelming. Just one small thing. It could be: - Adjusting my morning routine to feel more supportive - Rewording something I’ve been telling myself - Cleaning or reorganizing one small space - Shifting how I approach a task or conversation

🌿 Conversations with the Universe — April 10, 2026 The Day of Embodied Truth Today, I feel something anchoring deeper. Not new. Not different. But real. There is a message moving through me today: “Live it… don’t just understand it.” I notice how much I’ve learned. How much I’ve felt. How much I’ve processed, released, and realigned this past week. And today gently asks me: “Will you embody it?” Today is not about insight. It is about integration through action. I may feel a quiet call to stop circling the same thoughts… to stop revisiting the same internal conversations… and instead— become the version of me who already knows. There is a grounded, almost no-nonsense energy today. Not harsh… but clear. Clean. It doesn’t entertain confusion that I’ve already moved through. It simply says: “You know. Now live accordingly.” I may notice moments where I’m tempted to slip back into old ways of thinking… old emotional loops… old identities. And today, I am given a powerful choice: Do I revisit… or do I embody? Today offers me the blessing of self-trust in motion. A chance to stop questioning what I’ve already clarified… …and start living in alignment with it. There is strength in today. Not loud strength. But integrity. The kind that shows up in how I speak… how I choose… how I carry myself when no one is watching. Today teaches me: Truth becomes power when it is lived consistently. Not perfectly. Not all at once. But in real, grounded moments… throughout my day. There is a steady presence guiding me now. A quiet knowing that says: “You don’t need to go back. You are ready to move forward—fully.” ✨ Today’s Living Light Action: The Embodied Decision Today, I choose one truth I already know about myself… …and I act from it—without hesitation. It could be: - Setting a boundary I’ve been avoiding - Speaking honestly instead of staying quiet - Choosing a supportive habit instead of an old pattern - Following through on something I said mattered