So I figured out that I kept visiting areas and people that had low energy. I didn't really have full boundaries until recently. I think what that does is show that I had lacked self respect. Doing so, I didn't have a claim to argue back, or have backing. If another said well I did this or that; then collectively I wouldn't be able to dispute it properly. You know since I didn't have ground to stand on per say. Boundaries is important, because it demands it back. The self respect mirrors that by not catering to the lie that another would display. It was like I was playing an unfair game to my higher self by continuing to allow that and for my energy to be abused. No more though. I don't know fully, but I will learn more. What do you think? I do know that my writing skill(s) went up. I'm going to do certain things by how I can create word in another by my traumas accepted and my authenticity with writing. Just swinging a thought by you all; maybe I am off a bit. It feels very real. Thank you.