I’ve always had a very back and forth relationship to mary jane, there’s been times I’ve been using her very unhealthily for escapism and avoidance. But there has also been times her use has been very aligned and sparked new ideas, pleasure, and joy in my life For 2 years now I have been in a constant tug of war between these two truths. I have tired to quit so many times and have gone 2 months, 3 months without it. Then, because I’ve been without it the idea of using it for a fun beach day or a chill self care night sounds justified and harmless but ultimately brings me to the same hole. My soul is begging me to just stay sober and my inner teenager is resisting it like crazy because weed is one of the very few comforts I still have. All day every day I am taking aligned, boring action towards my goals. Going to the gym, working nonstop on my business, eating the same things to hit my protein and macros, and weed is the LAST comfortable thing I have, that lets me feel carefree. But it’s also the last thing holding me back from the version of myself I know is going to be more rewarding and help me grow, so today is 4 days sober with no loopholes, no exceptions, and no excuses. Sharing this here because this is a promise to myself I cannot break again, and this is the most supportive audience to witness my commitment ❤️

Hello, everyone. Shiva represents pure consciousness, while Shakti represents the dynamic energy that moves the universe. Without Shakti, consciousness remains inert. Can you explain to me how this relates to your understanding of masculine and feminine energy?

So it happened in April when I started practising Hoʻoponopono for getting to my first $10K/month. Before doing this I was literally at 0 but slowly and steadily I started getting clients and I’m on my way to achieve my goal. Now the thing is besides my business I’m also following a music career which is my main passion so I want to focus my energy there now but I’m not sure how I’m suppose to go about it because if I stop Ho’oponopono my money manifestation might get hindered. I still practice the prayer everyday and it works like magic. How can I manifest both the things simultaneously so that both things grow?

I was working through the first module in the classes and Irah quoted Jung’s infamous “what you resist persists” although she used the word “repress”. This stood out to me because I’ve been reading The Art Of Seduction out of curiosity and a big theme is repression. It made me think about myself and the repressed stuff I have chosen to keep buried or kind of layered affirmations on top. I just had a deep meditation where I got insight; all the times people hurt me I took my heart and hid the piece that got hurt. Over time, that’s become a big chunk of my heart. And the person who suffers most is me. So the download was that all that love can be re-directed toward myself🥹 I have repressed a lot of emotion and chosen to overcompensate with work or “self-improvement” in most of my adult life. My divine feminine has been caged up for quite some time, and recently I have seen the detriment of that. Sharing this to celebrate healing and growth with you all🩷 if this resonates or helps you open up something within yourself, feel free to share or reach out to chat✨

Happy Tuesday all! I was curious on when it comes to doing affirmations;is their like a limit or a recommended amount thats like ideal? I usually do like 15 from experience but wasn't sure if that was overkill or not lol