I am sure all of us who are on this path have had the experience of trying to put into words our experience and finding we can't. It can be frustrating. This short video explains why we can't really describe our experience with this medicine. It reminds me of the quote from the Tao Te Ching: "The Tao that can be told is not the eternal Tao" (trans Stephen Mitchell)

In other words, is it possible to endure deep anxiety or even anguish while remaining conscious of a timeless, eternal reality?

The seeker and what is sought are the same. To begin with, you do not exist in the way you think you do. The person you take yourself to be is an idea, a thought, a temporary form. Here is an analogy: Most of the waves in the ocean long to reach the ocean. But when some of the waves discover that their own nature already is the ocean, something decisive happens. In that very moment, the wave ceases to be a wave. The search comes to an end. There is no longer anyone who asks, anyone who seeks to arrive, anyone who speaks of existence. The human being is the same. A temporary expression, a form that arises and disappears. A temporary movement in the all-pervading consciousness, which for a time appears to limit itself through ignorance, through a dream-like experience of being separate. When this limitation ends, when the dream dissolves, it is called enlightenment. But in truth, it was never about an individual becoming enlightened. It has always been about the all-pervading consciousness recognising itself. There are no separate individuals. There never have been. Therefore, no one has ever become enlightened, and therefore no one ever will. What is, has always been what is.

Lucidity is not an endless analysis, it is above all a decluttering.

The difficulty is not in understanding, but in remembering that you have understood, in a system designed for forgetting.