I finally got the medical records I have been fighting for at the skilled nursing facility (still waiting on the business office files to do a proper audit and share my findings with the State and insurance company). It's been wild having to fight for the bare minimum standard of care & transparency in the US medical system while also advocating for my Grandma that's experiencing advancing dementia symptoms in the middle of all of this, but I am taking the day to catch my breath.

that is very interesting. Over here we're criticized for not doing this type of energy Recycling with our tree scraps.... People over here pay for tree services and then the myth is that those trees go straight into landfills. Fortunately, I am aware of the industry due to some of my trucker friends who actually work at facilities that haul building materials to fresh build sites and also haul away the trees from clearing land for homes and things like that, and several of the companies have their own mulching business where they grind the trees into mulch, and then turn around and sell it to the same developers that just cleared the land. So developers pay people to cut the trees down my friend's business halls the trees off, turns them into mulch, and then comes back and sells them to the same developers for landscaping material. lol. I never thought about the pellets being something that actually drives killing living things. It is crazy how they can take something that seems so sensible and make it anything but.

@Kathy Ratcliffe wow that's some serious gaslighting!

@Kathy Ratcliffe speaking of guides. I just got finished writing a script about cognitive survival when a whole bunch of things go wrong in life beyond your control all at once... how to use the emotional energy that you're feeling when you get emotionally flooded, and it cuts off your access to all the skills and abilities that you normally have... how to pattern interrupt out of anxiety, spirals, and lots of really, really great information after yesterday dealing with all kinds of hospital, bureaucracy, federal violations, and surreal advocacy challenges with my grandmother's hip surgery... The good news is she's doing extremely well and I was able to hold the fort and juggle three different cell phones on hold with various government agencies, insurance companies and institutions. Well also emailing documentation to the caseworker that was ignoring me to create this ironclad paper trail for the multiple ongoing investigations in the negligent care of my grandmother, but the good news is she's OK and I would've never had the capacity to be able to organize a multi front multimodal defense against corruption without having the skills that I'm gonna do a video on as soon as I come up for air. Today I'm checking on her and making sure she's OK and maneuvering through certain types of paperwork to make sure that justice is served while my grandmother is being taken care of at another facility.

@Kathy Ratcliffe I had to walk into the nursing home with another phone on Voice Memo to record the whole situation and I spent five hours filling out paperwork. It was ridiculous.... I would've loved to have been on line with you instead of dealing with what I was dealing with. My child was literally bouncing all over the walls. My grandmother was screaming in pain because they were withholding her pain medication and oh my gosh, it's gonna be a week but that's OK.... I can handle this. I've dealt with way worse, corporate mouth reasons and corruption, and I still have all the friends in the government that I made during the last rodeo I had to work. These people have no idea who they're messing with and it's fun to be underestimated when all you're doing is creating the timestamps and the paper trail to save you tens of thousands of dollars in Lawyer fees... but first we're gonna let the government tear them up and weaken them and get all kinds of penalties and destroy their reputation then sue them (because it's always easier to get punitive damages once the regulatory wave goes through). This is amateur hour compared to what I've been through with my mom's brain cancer.

@Kathy Ratcliffe thank you. Today is gonna be a big day for my grandma. It seems like everybody's looking at her and trying to judge and decide her future for and I am feeling that pressure to help her prove she is on the mend. It's a strange mission no doubt.

@Kathy Ratcliffe I'm going to battle today... I've had to fight hard at this hospital for the basic minimum care unfortunately. I was leaving the hospital to grab my grandmother's medication from home that they had forgot to give her for seven days straight, which was causing severe discomfort.... ended up having to change my tire in the rain because a triangular shard of a razor blade landed right in between the treads of my rear tire and quickly deflated it leaving the hospital parking lot. Luckily, I was able to get my neighbor to grab the medicine from my grandmother's house and help me with my tire and bring the pill bottle up there. They still wouldn't give it to her until The Doctor had signed off on it, but it was Sunday and The Doctor was on call and wasn't returning any calls so I've got to get my tire fixed and run up to the hospital. I sent my mom earlier with a copy of the letter I just shared with you so that she could keep to the timeline and understand what's happening to prevent them from railroading her... she was just at the same hospital and got lucky. I guess mainly because she can advocate for herself and doesn't have dementia. I think that's a big part of it.... Today's gonna be kind of tough, especially with all the rain in my allergies, but hopefully things will make sense here soon. I hope everything doesn't fall on me. I know I will get it done, but still there's a reason. Systems are in place. They're supposed to work. I don't know if it's better in the UK or not because it's all nationalized over here. It's run by greed and exploitation. I just want my grandma to have her psych meds so that she can transfer to the nursing home and start learning how to walk again. But it's gonna be OK. I'll definitely message you later and let you know how it goes.

@Kathy Ratcliffe that's why I'm mapping a lot of the waking consciousness to the subconscious in my work. Oddly enough, I've been able to get a lot of clarity on that in terms of seeing the bigger picture these days, especially working with my grandmother's dementia. I'm not quite like Hammeroff with the anesthesia angle, but more or less the different levels of being able to integrate complex information based on ones access rather than judging capacity. My grandma has a lot more capacity than she typically has access to and seeing how that plays out has really helped me map a lot of things.

@Kathy Ratcliffe much like inspiration...