I’m in a rut, and I have not been as disciplined and structured as I have been. I slipped back into the old version of myself because of some major depression as a result of personal aspects of my life. But ya know what? I am going to do a hard reset. I’m choosing myself, again and again, because that is what is rewarding. I’m not going to fall back into old habits and old patterns, instead I am recognizing it and resetting asap. I start a real gym membership this week (no more rec centre trips for me!) and I’m back on track with my diet plan. Nobody is perfect, and we all have hard times and tests of strength. I am grateful, because God has given me the ability to be self aware and the strength to do what is best for who I want to be. 💜🥰💪

This hit me hard— When I started this process, and realized I had to change, I had the thought that that version of me wasn’t enough. Was she really that bad? The truth is, she was just not equipped to carry and handle the life I truly wanted. She had to evolve, she had to elevate, and now I am stepping further into that 2.0 version of me every single day.

Todah, I am grateful for what God has given me, and for what I was able to let go of. Even if it felt like my life was over, holding onto things for too long means my hands are full, and He cannot hand to me what is truly meant for me. I am grateful for the strength to let go, even when it hurts. Grateful for the knowledge and signs that I should leave something or someone behind. Grateful that some doors close, just for others to open. 💜

Missing once happens, but missing twice builds a habit— So difficult to navigate when you are restricted after things like surgery. “No heavy lifting or exertion for at least a week” my dentist told me after extracting my wisdom teeth. I was crushed. The gym has become a safe and healing space for me, it helps me destress and cope with things like anxiety and depression. For a week, my meal plan and workout routine went out the window for the sake of my health— Yesterday, I was able to finally reset. A few more days and I will be back to my meal plan. I was hard on myself, but I reset at the first opportunity in which it was safe to do so. As with everything, there are outliers, and I didn’t let any restrictions build unaligned habits. Time to get back to the normal routine! 🥰💪💜