Hi. I have been going through a time of uncertainty in my life. Married for 18 years but the Lord told me to leave and not look back like Sodom and Gomorrah last year. I did leave in October of last yr but was turned back home. I have given my all I could in this marriage and the Lord knows it. We have five children together and it's been a struggle. I went to our pastors and they disapproved of us divorcing. They try to put the blame on me saying that I'm the one that is splitting up the family. Our family has been split long ago but I've been holding on just to survive. Spiritually I felt like I was dying. Everything I knew we left behind 6 years ago to live in a beautiful home in South Jersey. We moved from New York to South Jersey and it basically was the best decision for our children but the pain that I've been through the 6 years has been the worst pain that I've ever been through. Throughout my whole marriage there was not a Time of true happiness. He opened the door to adultery two weeks after us getting married. He abused me mentally, emotionally, financially and verbally. Every time I told him that I will leave he will threaten me to take away my children. I'm glad that I stumbled upon this community because I've been alone for so long and I don't feel like doing it alone anymore. I don't know where else to turn to or who else. I just know that I need Brothers and Sisters in Christ so help with prayer mostly and direction. God bless everyone and nice meeting ya'll.