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Feb 8 β’Β
Struggling to set boundaries.
I have a lot of people in my life, who are very close and not going anywhere soon, who unfortunately also consistently behave in a manner that leaves me feeling disheartened, upset, and demoralised about my own skills and capabilities. They wound me. And I am struggling to recognise where fault lies or action can be taken because I do not want to continue to be wounded and I do not want to make my life harder or smaller by pushing them away and out of it. But I am left again and again feeling alone, abandoned and ashamed of having tried to reach for the light and having striven to be seen and heard and felt and appreciated, only to be warned that I "probably wont succeed" or I "might get hurt in trying to". And I am so fed up with feeling sad and having my whole day derailed and my plans made a mess of by people I love showing their love by smothering my light. How do I stop this from happening? How do I protect myself from these woundings? How do I protect my energy and my peace and my drive to succeed?
1 like β’ Feb 9
Gosh god question. I certainly see the need to be right in myself too. The need to stick my nose in and tell another how it should be done and the need to feel like I have helped rather than the desire to open myself up to be helpful. I do this to my friends and partner, telling them what I think they ought to do without waiting for them to ask me for advice, and when they push back I double down. I guess the difficulty in seeing that is that I see the advice I give out as being a call to be more bold rather than to hide, but it is still unsolicited and unhelpful and overbearing in its action even if the form and content of the advice is different. Thank you.
1 like β’ Feb 9
And it also comes from Fear. I fear others will miss out on the beautiful bounty of life and try to get them to lean in. Others fear I will get my head ripped off and try to get me to lean back. So it is all fear that the other person won't do it right. Stemming from all the times I was told off by others or regretted within myself not having done something right and trying to spare someone else the failure I went through. Trying to 'rescue the man' instead of letting him have a moment of learning and struggle or even failure. We all regret our failures and try to spare others from "repeating our mistakes" not seeing them as necessary and valuable lessons to be stumbled and blundered through. The only difference is I regret the failures of not putting myself forward and others regret the failures of not being cautious enough. And so we are tugging everyone in opposite directions but all of us are failing to just do the inner work and care for ourselves instead of bossing others around. There, I have it now. I am trying to rescue others from life, and as such, am triggered and annoyed when others try to rescue me from life; "Just let me fail in my own way!" screams my inner child. And so too probably does theirs. Finished. Grounded. Complete.
Feb 2 β’Β
A Knight of the Round Table βοΈ
I did it! I did the first week of work on this course and I am proud of myself for doing it. I am proud to say I know myself better as a result of doing it and that is why I am happy with the achievement. I have moved closer to the completion of the art project of 'being myself' or living my life truly and completely. And I am glad. As I moved through the exercises I gained more insight into where I am right now and what I am using to slow myself down or restrict my movement entirely, and why I need to let go of that and that I DESERVE to let go of that. I am travelling for the next two weeks so will pause here instead of trying to overload myself and then getting upset at failing, and come late February I will start month one's training module. In the meantime I will keep this space in mind to post check in's, ask for support and share how I am feeling. I am loving this community and these exercises and what they are giving me, thank you! π
0 likes β’ Feb 2
Day 6 was definitely the biggest for me, two really beautiful exercises and paired together really beautifully. Getting to look at what's blocking me and what I want immediately after was really powerful. Especially after the kind of 'rest' of day 5 with its meditativeness and present contemplation and embodiment, made day 6 all that much more powerful. My biggest single lesson and takeaway is that I am my own only enemy and block, there is literally nothing and no one else standing in my way, my fear is the only thing holding me in place and stopping me moving forwards. So through this week I have been able to drop my fear having seen what it is and how listening to it only brings more of it into my life, and doesn't in fact produce less of it. So, courage, courage, courage Knight of the Realm, FORWARDS!
Jan 25 β’Β
Sun Day Fun Day
I bought the video game!! And I splurged for the cooler newer version that was Β£25 and I am as happy as I was anytime I entered a candy shop as a child because I now reown my favourite game of all time on my laptop here in 2026! It was the right choice and the right way to spend that money because now whenever I am feeling the need to move some soldiers around on a little map I know that I have Rome Total War 2 basically in my pocket! :D And now onto the week of learning how to be a Knight of the Round Table! :D πβοΈπβοΈπβοΈ
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Jan 24 β’Β
Final Check In
No not of forever or anything drastic like that, but of this week long run that I committed myself to in order to help step into this container and guide myself back to regularity and consistency in myself. So going forward I will check in here when I want to and when I need to, which I hope is with regularity. What have I learned in this week? Slow and steady makes the mustard. Consistency is King. Set small and gentle goals and meet them. It's not about achieving it all now, or even having it all done yesterday, its about enjoying and fully embodying this present moment, and trusting that in each moment I will choose to better myself or to push myself or to accept myself as is needed in each case. The courage and the COMPASSION to be wholly and completely myself. Without fear of not being on time or enough. This allows me to get out of my own way and succeed. This allows me to make goals and hit them without fearing the size of them or the consequences of success. So, I look forward to continuing this journey of self discovery and interpretation, of self love, acceptance and success. The journey continues.
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Jan 23 β’Β
Breath of fresh air
Today feels like a breath of fresh air in my heart and soul. It is a good and a big day full of work and effort and passion and HOPE. One of the things that has helped me this week is using a time table instead of a to do list. Adding times to the tasks and laying it out on a spreadsheet of half an hour rows (just like we used to at school) has actually helped me a lot with over planning and despair afterwards. I used to put loads of things in and "be okay" with stuff not getting done and rolling over to the next day. Trying a different method has shown me just how not okay I was with 'being okay' about that, especially on days where a lot of stuff rolled over. As the artists way says: "set small and gentle goals and meet them". I judge this to be good advice because for me Consistency beats Passion, Drive, Despair or Talent 10 time out of 10. So now I have a timetable just like I did at school: 8 columns by enough rows for each one to be half an hour of the day from 9am to 11pm. And my trick to using it has been to ALWAYS leave a half hour gap between each task. This both allows for overrun / for me to start tasks early, AND forces me to not pack too much in to the day. The frustration comes all up front when I am planning and have to leave stuff out rather than afterwards along with a message of 'failure' for not getting it all done. So I am enjoying my breath of fresh air and my new weekly scaffolding / time table.
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