I was terrified of the GMC finding out. Not because I’d done anything wrong clinically. Because I was struggling — and in medicine, struggling feels like a confession of unfitness. I thought: if they know I’m depressed, if they know I’m drinking to cope, if they know I’m not okay — that’s the end. The registration. The career. The identity I’d built over two decades. So I stayed silent. Like most of us do. What I didn’t know then: the silence was making everything worse. The performance of being fine is exhausting in a way the actual work never was. I’m Dr Santosh Luna. I’m a GMC-registered doctor with 23 years of experience, a brain tumour survivor, and someone who has come out the other side of treatment-resistant depression and alcohol dependency — without losing my registration. This group exists because I needed it and it didn’t exist. If you’re a doctor who is quietly not okay, you’re in the right place.