I've been trying to become a new me I've worked on myself so hard for the last 4 years then I reached this plateau where I just felt like what I'm doing could only bring me so far and I needed to find more I have questions about things life etc so I started searching for answers. Turns out that all the bettering myself from the years of abusing drugs and just being an all-out awful human being as maybe caused me some bad karma some I paid for in returned karma and I hope that now after almost 10 years of being clean except for the occasional magical spirit plant medicine every year on the summer solstice which has brought me to where I am in my search now. I've been trying to add meditation into my daily life style as well as positive affirmations and trying to manifest my future in the way that I know it is but for some reason I can't seem to get what people are supposed to get out of meditating and I can't dream dreaming is supposed to be a huge heart of raising your consciousness because your dreams are your problems being worked out and your subconscious and I don't know what to do about any of this I am really just fundamentally and extraordinary lost. Maybe this group can help or maybe not but I am very hopeful. Please let me known that yes I have made mistakes in my life and when I say I was an awful person I mean I was doing drugs and feeling from family members and just lying all the stuff you might kind of expect from a drug addict I wasn't out robbing the General public I've always been a really good person at heart I just walked a path that most wouldn't choose due to circumstances that went 100% of my doing long story if you want to know more ask me privately if not no big deal just please know that I really am a good person and I really am looking to raise my vibrations alter my state of consciousness so I too can't escape this light matrix. Any suggestions would be awesome, feel free to inbox me. Thank you all for reading this far. Blessed Be ❤️⭐

As I posted I've been having a lot of trouble meditating just haven't been able to get it right and I've never had a very deep meditative state happen and I've been feeling like I was or have been blocked for some reason by I don't know what so anyways I was spending the day today it's my day off looking into you know meditation for beginners on YouTube and anyways I came across this like 20 minutes video of how to meditate for beginners but it was by this Monk or Buddhist and you know he slowly started talking about the state of mind that you need to be in positions and so on and you know I'm listening to him kind of got a little tired but not fully tired and I got comfortable and relaxed and then he's like okay and on the screen was you know a babbling Brook I close my eyes and within 4 minutes I was just so light yet so relaxed and then I started hearing a voice but it wasn't clear at first and it would go away really fast like as soon as I noticed it like it would stop then it occurred to me that I had heard the same voice last night before I fell asleep like when I was on that almost asleep but not quite asleep and it woke me up and I was wondering like why is that sound like my mother but more childlike and playful and then again today when I was in this meditative state and it happened again and this time it told me to look up now I'm sitting outside in the chair my legs kind of up like I'm kind of crossed a little bit like almost Indian style but not cuz they were on like an ottoman and there's a like an awning over me a tarp so I kind of just to myself thought look up at what there's nothing up there so I didn't bother I stayed in focus with what I was doing but just after it happened a plane literally flew over my head and relatively low and dawned on me was this thing in my head doing that to kind of acknowledge it's existence because I'm you know on that verge of believing certain things and not believing certain things and that's kind of reaffirms my belief in some things so I don't know but it was truly profound and I'm looking for answers anybody got any? I'd love to hear any and all perspectives please.

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