Lust , social media , fear

Hii , I'm Dinah from RSA ,I've been distracted lately I suffer from anxiety,lust, inconsistency, purpose and feel distant from God. I feel that he's calling me closer and the more I get close to him the more distractions call out to me ,I fell into a habit if never tell anyone about and don't want my parents to find out ,so I fell into a habit of masturbating and watching porn I feel like this has to do with some spiritual battle happening from what happened to me as a child "molested" and also what's happening currently "parents don't want me to date though Im not interested in anyone and no one's interested in me just because mom ended up pregnant as a teen doesn't want me to make same mistake" it's been eating at me a lot and I feel like I'm suffocating