I Joined to get things together, but right now I need support.
Hey family, I hope it’s okay for me to share something personal for a moment. I just joined this group a couple weeks ago and got to be on my first Zoom recently, and I really appreciate the gems and mindset being shared in here. That said, I’ve been sitting with something heavy, and I wanted to speak from the heart. Lately, I’ve been feeling really low. I’m not looking to hurt myself or anyone, but I’ve been asking myself, “What’s the point?” more often than I’d like to admit. I left my job a while back to clear my mind and reset my life. I was doing the best I could to create space for peace and personal growth. I even signed up for classes that truly meant something to me and that part felt like a win. But things haven’t gone how I planned. I used what I had saved to hold things down, but rent, responsibilities, and trying to do something special for my son’s graduation and birthday ended up draining me completely emotionally and financially. I didn’t think it all through, and I own that. But I also feel like I’m trying to carry everything alone. Right now, I don’t have income coming in. I don’t have much of a support system. And I’m trying to stay strong, but honestly… I’m tired. I know people expect me to be okay, but I’m not okay right now. I’m just trying to breathe through the weight of it all. I don’t share this for pity I just want to be honest and transparent. If anyone in here has ever been in this kind of space and made it out whether spiritually, emotionally, or financially I’d appreciate hearing anything that helped you. Because right now, I could really use some light and guidance. Thank you to those who’ve already poured into this space just being in the Zoom reminded me that there are people building something real. I just wanted to share where I’m at, and I appreciate you letting me.