Want to hear something that is hard to accept but is true for most people? we are more like our parents than we think. I know it sucks to admit this or see this the same things you don’t like about mom and dad are patterns you either rebel against or embrace and even if you rebel and don’t like it… the rebelling against is still being controlled by it and what we judge in them is what we judge in ourselves I’ve been reading some books on inner child healing and psychology that have been super insightful for me with both my work and as well as how I can apply it to my own life I’m also going to be going to a transformation retreat later in the year many of my friends have been through that is specifically on healing the child mother and father dynamic and last night I did a meditation before bed connecting to my mom and dad… to when they were 12. Can you imagine having a conversation with your mom and dad when you were 12 and they were too? What emotions would they feel? What challenges do they have? This was super insightful for me I realized that due to my moms childhood… she felt TRAPPED she had to run away around 16 years old due to a certain type of abuse that was happening in the house she felt lonely and scared and didn’t know what to do at 12 years old she had a passive mom that allowed what was happening to happen And I found it very interesting growing up… I felt trapped too having the controlling ex step mom in my life until about 16 as well and a passive parent that at some level allowed it to happen too I’ve never realized how much like my mom I might be she is someone who had to fight for freedom… like I did she is someone who probably felt avoidant of relationships and didn't want to be trapped in them similar to how I have felt in the past too she had a hard time trusting people due to her childhood and I can see that much of the same type of energy that was in her childhood was in mine too having this experience allowed me to gain more clarity around my patterns and to realize that it didn’t all start with me