@Kirill Bordon thank you for your honesty brother.. That's real. My experience wasn't quite like this but I see you.

@Gregory Mummah you got this🙏

First off id like to thank you Markwell for stepping up, challenging yourself and in turn, challenging some brothers to step up. Definitely illuminated some blind spots for me. I feel like there's certainly a skill to sifting through these questions and truly seeing from your deepest truth and I need to get better at that. The day the day challenges sort of mirrored my life and things happening in my life so I was grateful for that. It was definitely a challenge as I worked 12 hour shifts just about every day for this challenge so I'm proud of my effort. There's been this charge in me to not let incomplete interactions build up within me and a refocus on moving any stuck energy. To continue to show up even if I'm not being met with the same presence and consciousness.

Hey Markwell. Can you clarify "yield any pressure or agenda" in the Y for EASY?

So it's interesting, in day 7 I mentioned how I spoke to my sister about her son not saying thank you when I've given him a gift for his birthday. So the result of that was she kind of blew up, got really offended and took it really personally. She sent me this really long email and went into all kinds of stuff that was unrelated or at least seems unrelated, told me not to tell her how to parent and that her son just made a mistake and he's not like that. So I've been sitting with this, not wanting to jump into a response and come at it consciously. I see how triggered she got and how it seems like a trauma response which is pretty common in our family and she was responding super emotionally. I was kind of surprised and kind of not surprised. I actually took responsibility when I initially sent her the message. Saying I felt this was an opportunity for further inquiry as to why it's happening because it's happened a few times. I told her that maybe I wasn't doing enough and that id prefer if she didn't tell him. That maybe there was another way to address it. This all seemed to not matter at all to her. I realize her response may indicate a lot of stress in her life and I know she's trying to hold it all together for her family. It's almost like a complete over reaction to my original message which is pretty standard as a way to make me think twice about doing this again. To answer the rest of the question, I haven't exactly avoided the conversation because it only happened yesterday but there's definitely some resistance around this one. I'm taking my time to really feel into it and may respond tomorrow. I'm going to keep it to the facts and open it up to other issues or grievances she stated regarding other issues but my focus will be on the main issue and to not get pulled into other stuff. Speak my truth from the heart and lean into a bit. I have found that I've been challenged to do this a lot lately but leaning in and speaking my truth doesn't always make me feel better about it, even though I know I need to. I feel I need to do a better job of letting it go if the other person just can't meet you where you're at. Know you did everything you could but that's not always coming easy.

Super late on this but I would say protecting my sexual energy has been a big one for me. I'm not married but I'm in a relationship and for some reason whenever I've been in relationships or establishing new relationships there are often these women that come in to my life to test me and try and pull me away. I've become really tight with my sexual energy. I protect this because I only want to exchange this with someone who has these same views and respects this sacred energy exchange. I used to be very loose with this never really respecting the power of this union. I believe this will help cultivate that deep Yes when the time is right.

I feel I need to be there more for my parents. I also find it hard sometimes to not feel guilty when I don't show up. There's a balance when it comes to accepting what you have to give and being ok with where you're at that I go back and forth with. I also recently had a discussion with my sister about her son, my nephew not saying thank you when I sent him some money for his birthday. I didn't want her to just tell him to say thank you. I wanted to use this opportunity to go a little deeper as to why he doesn't feel called to tell his uncle thank you.. It's not the first time btw. This can be confronting for my sister as a parent I imagine. I didn't want to tell her she's not doing a good job to make sure her kids have basic manners. I told her this is an opportunity for further inquiry. Maybe I'm not doing enough to establish a proper relationship so I took responsibility for my part. Maybe sub consciously he feels awkward about receiving money from his uncle who he doesn't really have a relationship with, who knows. There could be a number of reasons. Unfortunately she told him to say thank you so I received a scripted message from him but i see this as an opportunity or a wake up call to go a little deeper