I’m looking forward to this weekend for many different reasons: I’m working Saturday and the job is treating the employees to dinner - ordered from Applebys. My husband has a performance on Sunday so I’ll have the house to myself; just me and my dog. A couple I married 3 yrs ago asked me to visit on their wedding anniversary and perform a house blessing and a friend of my daughters is coming over for prayer. These events are exciting for me because despite my current challenges, God✨has given me opportunities to be used by Him- and that feeds my soul. This community, as my safe space helps me navigate and feel supported. This aids in my ability through my faith to be a blessing to others even while I am healing ❤️‍🩹 from my own pain.

Kassandra I can truly relate to this video and one point on particular that “stands out for me” is,… recognizing that my emotions, especially GRIEF was always there and had to simply “wait its turn”to be expressed. When I ask myself the question: 🙋🏾‍♀️ “What happened to me? I am able to answer with clarity that I abandoned myself and became the regulator for all my husbands needs. It was a slow and unassuming process. I feel like I was under a “spell” so to speak. I see that now and just couldn’t before. In my mind I picture myself entangled with an octopus: with its narcissistic tentacles around my arms, legs, eyes and throat. By God’s ✨grace I can see now more clearly what actually happened to me and that is why my healing has begun.