My fear of rejection/not being liked is crippling at times. My circle these days is so small and it’s because it’s the only people I actually feel comfortable being myself around. I consistently overthink just about every social encounter wondering did I say too much… or not enough… was my personality something that people liked or disliked. I wish I could walk into every room feeling comfortable just being me but there is always this lingering thought of never being good enough for a friendship/significant other/work associate, whatever it may be. I’d like to believe I’ve handled it all relatively well but to say I don’t have “baggage” would be a lie. I consistently try and bury all of it for fear of being too much to handle, but I know I’m only doing myself a disservice and often why my depression creeps back in so strong at times. I’m the friend people call to help handle everyone else’s problems, while never feeling like I can speak on mine. (Which I am not complaining about the handling of other people’s… I am glad I am the person people feel they can call on and would never want that to change). I just want to feel like I can also always express myself and not have people run away in fear. It’s happened, I see it. But I need to be okay with the rejection because this is who I am and if it ain’t good with someone else, there is no point in us having some sort of relationship anyways. It’s been a very one sided situation with too many people and working on trying to be more open and ok with some people not wanting to be a part of my life.