@Jakub Pacanda wow I typed up a whole story and it was lost ... Well in short materialistically it cost me my car , my house my whole storage and my home and my business , my marriage and being no income no job or work. Emotionally The loss of many changes in moving house more than ince, losing everything of my household, walking out with nothing after my divorce , added grief with he loss of my middle sister 10 years yesterday, many emotional trauma and covid didn't help, many tears and restarts having to pick me up from the floor and a place where ai orayed more than ince to God to olease take me off this earth. But then into new possibilities was not easy at all.. but i did , with some help from my children and a friend or too assisting in some living space ,I pushed to get work or a job it was a start again that was about 2/3 years ago. Even having a labour court case with an ex employer on bullying in the beginning if this year and being unfairly dismissed , didnt get me under but made me stand up for what is right, although this experience caused more anxiety for me, I once again pushed through it and here ai am. Actually lost some hope and Trust in Humanity. But I am stronger , made new choices to set more boundaries for myself and I do believe in the words I CAN, and also Believe in Myself, and with GOD on my side, as a spiritual believer and believe in myself , I held on ,even been on the street for a day. But I am back on my feet and a new direction. I can honestly say the reiki healing , My angelic teams and guides and the ONE ABOVE ALL AND EVERYTHING , GOD kept me going to strive to improve my life , small steps at a time. Well Here is a healing Meditation everyone should do to let go of old hurts and grief and moving forward in with love. maybe I will do a Video sometime on my journey I walked. LaVa Much Unconditional Love and Respect. I AM Lunessa of the Light my name from the angelic teams of Mercy and Grace. Kindness to All