Sorry Iāve been quite on here. I joined the 24th and on the 21st I found out that my best friend committed suicide. And i figured I would join this group to help me out with this grief process. He lives in a different state so it feels so much harder. Ik I canāt do this by myself. I look forward to seeing everyoneās positive post!
I know I post a lot on here, I feel the more we talk and interact with each other it becomes easier to open up. So whoās got fur babies? In my experience they are some of the best listener! In the picture itās my two cattle dogs both are very aware of my emotions and have helped me out a ton!
these are my fur babies. black cat is Diesel, heās my chonky boy (21lbs), grey cat is Roxy, and the pupper is Lily. sheās an australian cattle dog/blue heeler/beagle mix!
3 years ago, i got the terrible call that my best friend, Jeanette, was no longer with us. she took her own life. it still doesnāt feel real. i spent every week with her each summer between school, every weekend we got when we were both off work, and every available chance together. we would randomly go pick up hair dye and iād color her hair. weād have movie nights. weād go on random adventures out in the country just blasting music and loving life. it was so unexpected. i had no idea she was struggling as much as she was. and i question every interaction i had with her leading up to it. did i miss the signs? why didnāt she reach out to me? could i have done something to stop her? there isnāt a day that goes by that i donāt miss her smile or her laugh. she had the most contagious laugh there was. she was beautiful inside and out and my twin in so many aspects. i miss her so much.
hey yall, i just need a space to vent for a second. the holidays far me have been a little rough for the past 10ish years. little back story: growing up, i was a daddyās girl, through and through. i did so much with my dad and was always with him. we had our little traditions we did, which almost always involved him taking me on rides on his Harley. my grandpa always came with me and my dad since he had a Harley too, and i would ride with my grandpa sometimes instead of my dad. my grandpa and my dad were my best friends. my grandpa passed in 2012 from a very, very short battle with cancer. i remember the day like it was yesterday. and ever since he passed, things went kinda downhill. my parents got divorced in 2015, and my dad told me from the very beginning he wouldnāt go a day without seeing me or talking to me, that i was his #1 priority. and i believed him.. until i started realizing the truth. my dad is an extremely abusive alcoholic. what he put my mom through my entire life breaks my heart. i never thought he was capable of what he had done. until it started with me. in the 5 months it took for the divorce to go through the courts and be finalized, my outlook on him completely changed. he wasnāt who i thought he was. and it all came to a crashing halt when he tried to have me arrested for protecting myself from him. i havenāt seen or spoken to him since i was 16. itās like i never existed to him. he has his own new life with his own new family and i was never a part of it. but even after everything he put me and my mom through all those years, i still struggle with not having him in my life. i constantly struggle with the thoughts of āmy own dad didnāt even want meā or āwhy was i never good enough for himā. one of the daily struggles i have that i think is the hardest is feeling like because my own dad didnāt want me, no one else will. abandonment issues are my biggest struggle when it comes to any relationship i have, whether that be romantic or platonic. and i hate it. him walking out on me so easily and acting as though im not his own flesh and blood tourments me dailyā¦
my hometown has the most restaurants per capita in the state of ILš¤£we also host something called Bloomington Gold which is this MASSIVE corvette show. and the town iām living in now is where Ben Zobrist is from and where Ronald Reagan went to college
hey yall, iām super late to this but my apps been glitching out for some reasonšanywhosy, im brittany, you can call me brittany, brit, b, whatever your heart desires. iām 23 from central IL, i work in EMS, and mental health has always been a passion of mine. losing my absolute best friend to suicide in 2020 really got me super involved in helping others. iām so excited to get to know every one of yall!
Just wanted to create a list of all of our favorite comfort shows so that those of us looking to try new ones or connect over similar ones can. Here are my top 5: 1) Friends 2) NCIS 3) The Office 4) New Girl 5) That '70's Show
So I wanted to share this because Iām not quite over it and Iām not sure how to grieve in a healthy way. I need a little help. Iām sure everyone here has lost family and friends. This year has been one of my worst for losses. In July of 2023 my bestfriend was in a 4 car pile up. She was placed under sedation and on a ventilator for two weeks. Then eventually moved to a medically induced coma on her third week. She was expected to make a full recovery after her body had time to rest and heal. A doctor attempted to perform a trach on her knowing he shouldnāt. He created a second hole on accident and it got infected with necrotizing fasciitis. A week later the infection had spread to her brain. Ultimately leading to her death on July 25th. The wound of her passing still feels fresh as if it just happened today. She was 20 years old. Her mother is a drug addict and used the money we raised to bring her body from Texas to home in Indiana for drugs. As far as I know her body is still in the morgue in Texas. I have resorted to unhealthy ways of coping due to this. And I have lots of pain and anger towards her mother and the doctor. I am not entirely sure what to do with my feelings. I feel as if everything I try to do to help myself doesnāt work. And Iām at a loss. Iām always in pain and Iām tired of hurting. And I just need someone who has experienced this to help me and lead me down the path of healing. She was a beautiful soul who saw the good in everyone and everything. And she got me through some of my darkest times. And now I do not have her to get me through those times. Here are some beautiful pictures of my bestfriend and I. She was very connected to nature so I tend to go on walks and watch the sunset to connect with her but itās just not enough it feels like. She was an amazing aunt to my little boy as well.
I struggled for the longest time (sometimes still do) thinking I wasnāt good enough. Wondering why I wasnāt enough for some people. Whatās wrong with me? Thenā¦. I saw a post on Facebook with these amazing words. It spoke to me so much I even got āLet themā tattooed on me! This is now my new mindsetāŗļø
