Happy Monday everyone !👋🏾👋🏾👋🏾 This season is feeling like refinement disguised as pressure where God is stripping noise so I can hear Him clearly and respond without hesitation. If I’m honest I don’t like the pressure. In my mind I have and need a reason for everything to make sense. Obedience isn’t always easy. Discovering the difference between what’s for me and what’s for others. Forgiving, learning, letting go of things fast bc I know the enemies devices. The warfare is a signal that something is close. The Lord has been teaching me surrender that isn’t emotional, but obedient, trust that doesn’t need constant reassurance, just consistent yes. Learning how to extend His patience and loving kindness for me to others. I’ve been learning that I don’t always need to be the strong one, the fixer, or the one holding everything together. Some of the weight I’ve been carrying was never assigned to me in the first place. Trust is relinquishing control and allowing Him to take care of me and truly be my provider in every instance. God has been confronting my tendency to overextend, overgive, overshare and then quietly resent what I never set boundaries around. He’s been healing the part of me that confuses exhaustion with faithfulness, and developing rest that is my portion bc of Who He is and who I am IN HIM. I often struggle with safety bc my history has been people react negatively whenever I choose myself. That is not my issue so I’m learning to not make it mine. This season is requiring me to slow down internally even when life stays loud externally. To respond instead of react. To be led instead of just useful and available. As I heal this version of me will reveal so much on its own without me having to make things happen. I believe GOD is preparing me for a deeper assignment. I care about too many variables. Me understanding why I’m here matters more than what I’m doing, and obedience to Him matters more than what I feel or others think or understand. It’s revealing that some relationships, habits, and even mindsets only made sense in a previous version of me. This version of me can’t keep surviving off what used to be ok because it kept me stagnant, second guessing myself and shrinking, unable to rise to the occasion. I’m more aware now more than ever that it matters who you surround yourself with and those faces change in different seasons and that has been difficult for me.