This was very enlightening. I will listen to it again because there's a lot in this.

What a great reflection and question. For me I think that I am trying to prove my value still with whether or not I am successful monetarily with with my Skool community of all things. The second question what might change is for me the ability to be present 100% present, in the moment. And this was really brought home to me recently when I was in New Mexico at one of our trainings. There's a tradition in our curandero practices that students bring gifts of gratitude to their teachers and elders. And this was an unofficial training but I was caught off guard when students began bringing me their gratitude gifts and it pushed me to be fully present as I was receiving these gifts and as they were presenting them to me. There’s a particular protocol of how the gifts are given. And it made me so aware of who I am and the value that I bring to the students and it was very eye-opening and an amazing awareness and it required me to be 100% present. At that moment I knew that I was already enough.

I was in a spiritual void after my hard break with the faith I was raised in. I knew that I needed some type of connection and I also knew that I did not want dogma. So that longing for connection and the search that went with it led me through various spiritual worlds checking things out and I did a weekend workshop on shamanism. Something in that workshop clicked for me and resonated very deeply and I began a new way of connection that has opened so much life for me over these years.

The question reminds me of when I was in ceremony a few weeks ago. there were people I know well, others I had only met. And in the moment of ceremony just doing what I do, it feels like I disappear in a good way. My whole heart can be seen during those moments.

I think I'm at a point when I step back, and I collect more knowledge I'm focused on how to make life simpler rather than more complicated!