Hey Josh. I hear the intensity of your experience and relate completely,,it is feeling really brutal for me too. But as I sit still I can see that what is driving it is fear. Yeshua never spoke of evil beings in aramaic that I read. He spoke of fear,,,which gets us to stop breathing, and when we stop breathing that is the evil force. The suppression of our flow of Source. I can really feel it under all my pain and suffering,,if I were not afraid under all of this,,,I would not be so exhausted no matter what was happening i would be rowing my boat down the river remembering,,,as He sis in the boat, fear not. Peace in the boat is what we need to constantly practice. And I have been trying a long time to live there but have not yet sunk into that kind of Constancy of certainty either. I guess we need to do a fear fast next