The people who are counting on me being the best version of myself are my kids, my wife, my parents and my close friends. Ultimately, what answering these questions daily has brought me to realize is that in order for me to be there for all those people I need to be aligned with myself. So at the foundation of it all, I need me, and I think I am the one I am neglecting the most.

I'm out of integrity with my ability to consitently go after what I say I want. I will put in a day or so of hard work, then let things slide for another week or so. I feel like I'm not reliable to myself. I try to be a reliable person to others in my life, but I don't seem to mind letting myself down, missing my own deadlines, or going back on commitments that I've made to myself. This comes into play in my current job hunt, my artistic endeavours and my fitness goals.

This one was hard for me too. I feel like the concept of a mask doesn’t resonate with me. Flaws though, I have a lot of those :). Hiding those flaws behind a mask isn’t something do very well. I feel like I’m such a bad liar/actor that I’ve never been able to hide them very well. If I really think about it I might say that “nothing panics me” is a mask or “I can handle anything”. But I don’t know if it’s a mask or how I actually feel? I see major flaws in this way of being because if everything is “minor” then nothing is “major”, which is a sure fire way of downplaying important parts of life. Which I have definitely done (do). Something I would like to change.

@Markwell ThatGuy Yes, I think there is a connection between the "nothing bothers me" and "low agency". If what you're saying is I should let more things bother me and those "bothers" might push me to actually take action. I take your point and agree, easier said than done after a lifetime of this strategy, but I agree. I will try to get a little more pissed at my current situation and see if that doesn't motivate me to move forward. Thanks, as always, you are the man with the provocative questions.

I'm felling like im 50/100 and I want to be at 100% in all aspects. Right now I'm most out of alignment financially. I'm currently unemployed, and while severance will "keep me afloat" for a while, it does nothing to secure the future. So much of my personal story is wrapped up in what I do next, beyond the financial, I'm scared of taking a big swing and missing, but I think I'm more scared settling. Ironically, that seems to be the path I'm on if I don't fully commit to something.

If it all worked out of me I would live a life of high agency. Where I set a vision and made moves to go after that vision. I’m confident that with that as a foundation success other measures of happiness would naturally flow.