Thank you Anita for letting your light shine and in doing so unconsciously giving me the permission to do the same. This was exactly what I needed at the time I needed it :)

What comes to mind is educational courses that I collect which I tell myself help me to step into the person I want to become The truth is they grow me in a sense yes, but more so in my imagination than in an embodied sense. So its a delay tactic, a self deception that directs my focus away from dangerous progress towards safe consumption. This keeps me as a consumer instead of flipping the script and rewriting my role a creator, someone who leads with value, invents exciting offers and commands my own fees So I'm recognising the familiar signals to "prepare" but this time interpreting them as I feeling unsafe and learning to be able to sit with my feelings and unlearning the perception that fear is a stop sign, it may infact be a sign its something I really value Right now I am focusing on reconnecting with action bias muscle, and its making me feel more alive than I've felt in a long long time Thanks for the share Anita

Saying yes to safe learning but no to transformative growth, but now the poles are reversing, of Saying a Deep yes to transformative growth and Saying no to safe learning One layer deeper in my own experience there is a Saboteur part which is a protector who at the critical moment steers my desire towards shiny objects just before transformation occurs and has great power to narrow my vision to pull me away from the path of growth However recently I've been seeing a path to be more flexible in my decisions, to honour the deep yes desire to move forward right now to recognise I have everything I need within me, and to be able to honour my wants for some gadgets as rewards to myself! Loved this one Anita!

Hi Garin, Thanks for your message, It's interesting to read how you've created your own inner and outer scoreboard as a way to honour the value of growth I've definitely had the challenge as I believe we all do with self deception... That I make bold starts, make progress but then slip into the comfort zone when it gets scary honoring instead the value of certainty. So for me specifically typically I'm a very organised and prepared person. In this situation at the wedding, I knew this wedding was coming up for months in advance. Yet I've been going through some major mind bending shifts right now... While many things I'm not sure of... I knew one thing for sure... I didn't want to sweat the small things... I didn't want to give unimportant things more importance, to leave space for excitement. So I sorted some major things in advance But then I let go.. Me and my partner stayed up late the night before, I knew I needed to be there roughly at that time, but not precisely, I had a gift, no card, no card written by the morning day of, I had a suit, no hotel room booked, they had one available, I split the cost with my partner. One of my closest friends partners even commented, "I love how spontaneous you are". In the moment I was rushed and stressed, making decisions and I said back "I don't" while smiling and laughing at the predicament I found myself in. So me testing my power was about releasing control, and was about having one foot in chaos and one foot in order, being creative in the moment, trusting that everything will not only be alright but more exciting because it forces me to pay attention to seek out opportunities. I typically don't drink, yet I gave myself permission to drink quite alot in the end because I wanted to feel apart of the occasion, when all the grooms were grabbing cigars for photos, I didn't because that's a boundary I won't cross not even on occasions. So I challenged myself to make different decisions where there was flex, and yet held firm on things that mattered to me.

@Anita Kozlowski I didnt see your response Anita, the link sent me back to this question of the day post

For me wealth is... Living powerful decisions, saying No often to live my Deep Yes. And smiling because I know what is most important to me. The inner freedom to show up how I'd like with a powerful exciting intention/project that inspires me and others, the outer freedom of time to deeply explore, to deeply experience, deeply connect within and without, to deeply breathe, to deeply contemplate the mystery. The deep realisation of wellbeing being my natural state, that we are so incredibly provided for (the Utilisation principle EVERYTHING is always working out for me) Knowingness of superabundance in and all around me Being in a state of superabundance myself Co creating superabundance with others Sharing superabundance further with others Material wealth both matters and doesn't matter. It doesn't matter enough to let it rule your expression of your deeper life purpose (a common mistake made by high achieving image conscious unfulfilled people). Yet it does matter to have enough results in this area to have freedom of options, and experience expansion that is exciting, with a quality of life that you appreciate True wealth is a paradox, wanting what you already have its a FEELING of abundance, yet excitedly living on the leading edge of thought pursuing your highest FEELING THOUGHT right NOW

@Anita Kozlowski ❤️