im terrified of being a bum and the constant negativity is making me believe it
lowk Iโm scared, like really scared, ive even had nightmares about being a "bum" so vivid they woke me up all sweaty and shii. The hardest part is that everyone I know, including my parents seems convinced Iโm "fucked" and that itโs over for me, i donโt know if they see something in myself that I canโt see, or if theyโre just projecting their own fears, but hearing them say Iโm totally fucked and i just dont realized it has worn me down, they really focus on the part that i dont realize how fucked the situation im in. im sick of people telling me how to "fix" my life when I never asked for their advice, maybe cuz i oveshared and like, told them everything about my life, the good the bad, my issues my problems all that stuff, which i blame myself for it cuz i was so dumb. It feels like they think they know better than me, and theyโve decided my future before Iโve even lived it. The constant daily negativity has finally broken through. Iโm starting to believe them, my mentality is messed up, I feel uncomfortable in my own skin, and Iโm constantly wondering if theyโre right because itโs literally breaking me.