@Jas Karan From this year,I realize that something new. I mean happening in my mind. I'd like to ask myself who I am. My name is not me,it's just a symbol. My job is not me either. Who the hell I am?Especially my dad passed away on April someday, I began to think about the life. How to live my life, how to face the birth and death. I never, ever thought about death. From that moment, My mind started to work just like rolling the ball. What I have felt is the emptiness. About me, it is the emptiness. You know this is a very hard time for me. I am pretty much sure that I have learned a lot of principles, however it doesn't work. That's why I walk close to buddhism.