Six years ago, I was tired of my job…I mean, BONE-WEARY, like I dreaded waking up just to go to my home office and do the work anymore.
Every Sunday, I would get so anxious, my family couldn’t stand to be around me, and I would self-medicate to get to sleep almost every night of the week.
I had a young family, and I had a lifestyle I had created that gobbled up everything I brought home every month.
One thought invaded my mind every time I tried to get creative:
“What would everyone think if I just…walked away??”
I blamed myself for being weak, the job for being stifling, and the people around me for just not understanding.
Then COVID hit…
It may have been the space created by no longer traveling for work, or by working fewer hours per week during that time. Or, just the fear of being faced with something so large, so unknown, and so unprecedented.
But something broke.
I started to question WHY I was killing myself to follow this path.
What I had achieved was the result of years of hard work, focus, and determination, and at one time, it had been a dream of mine to get where I was.
It felt irresponsible to risk my family's future on some new dream that I didn’t even know what it looked like yet!
But I knew I could no longer live that dream; I had outgrown it.
I was in therapy at the same time, learning how to sleep better. The therapist was a young man, not long out of college.
He asked me all the standard questions and put me through the standard treatments, but learning this new process suddenly gave me POWER.
That power came from the clarity of recognizing that I had a problem and that I needed help to retrain myself to do something as simple as getting and staying asleep.
Instead of thinking “why me?”, I began to think “why not me?”, and not just about my sleep troubles.
I no longer felt moving on was failure. It was a natural progression for me, and I just needed to leverage my strengths to forge a path forward.
The result had to be an exit from the corporate world I felt trapped in, but the path had to be measured, responsible, and foolproof.
I created a system for managing our finances and planning for the future that super-charged the opportunity we had at the time (making more money than we needed) and forced us to reevaluate every dollar we spent.
That system created SPACE where I could begin to focus on the future and the next dream.
The day I realized it was working, I was in a meeting listening to our new fearless leader propose the very same changes as our last fearless leader had only a few years before, and I DIDN’T CARE.
I knew that soon I would have the CHOICE to stay in this place or move on.
That CHOICE empowered me to quit that job in November of 2025 and create my own business on a responsible financial footing.
That CHOICE gave me the strength to believe in myself and the ability to help others do the same.