“Changing the world” when the Dao is so far beyond influence

I suppose I’m a bit disenchanted with being a hero. Yes, I’m helping people. Of course I am, I wouldn’t be doing anything else, that’s just how I was raised.

But honestly, given truly infinite karmic exponentially, AND truly infinite meritorious action and results… does one ever cancel out the other? Said differently, is ‘ freedom from suffering for all beings’ even actually possible?

This is not, of course, the first time I’ve asked myself this question.

I had to grapple with it before taking the Bohdisattva vows. The convincing factor was my Teacher at the time asking me,

“If eventual enlightenment for all beings is not possible, would you still come back and help?… and, If eventual enlightenment for all beings WAS possible, would you still come back and help?” - my answer of course to both questions was, ‘yes’. So I took the vows.

When it comes to marketing and making real income, I run into three issues,

1) what do I actually do? And how do I actually do it?

2) If “saving the world” is in fact not possible, then why am I busting my ass?… I cover my bases, and cover my bills, but honestly not much more than that. Is that “existing in the middle way” and therefore karmically healthy, or, am I shooting myself in the foot?

3) as per Matt’s recent Facebook post, advertising a ‘self’ is the opposite of transcending a self. Even though yes, I can see how, using ones self-based identity to serve the world, ultimately benefits others in their path towards transcending their selves.

But honestly, I truly ask myself, whether or not transcending the self, is a worthy cause. People are generally more happy and less existentially tortured when they are more ignorant of complex ideas of reality.

And, who am I to say that other people need to walk the same/similar path that I have walked?

Going deeper down a rabbit hole of dissolving an identity and understanding my soul, has not necessarily led to a significant improvement in my ability to provide for myself . So why lead people in the same direction?

Has my ability to provide for myself financially improved? Yes. Absolutely.

But my spiritual, emotional, mental, energetic, and interpersonal mastery has not filled the bucket of financial mastery- and, they seem to be on total opposite ends of the spectrum. The tangible and the intangible.

As mystics, we are intrigued by the intangible. as a woman, I have very fully reclaimed and built an incredible sensing relationship with my body, it is 100% a portal. What a gift.

I do tangible real well 😉

Honestly, I feel like I’m just skating professionally until my parents die and I get inheritances. (Kinda shitty)

Doing good things everywhere I go in the meantime, but (barley) making sure I can cover my bills, bc there are so many insane ‘wasters’ and ‘over consumers’ out there that I don’t need to contribute to the excessive rape and pillage of the earth any more than I already am by simply existing.

There. I think that’s about it. 💥

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